Naive vs The Experienced

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Bonkers

Good day, everyone!

I’ve been meaning to blog about this question a very long time ago however, each time I try to get it on my paper — all thoughts mysteriously vanish, as though I have my very own Bermuda Triangle at the back of my head. <TДT>

And just now, I tried to summon the ‘writer’ side of me but ended up wasting an hour writing a couple of useless paragraphs, another hour gone to looking intently at the paper in hopes that words will magically emerge out of nowhere and —- 5 seconds to draw a raging sheep. <-__-> ↓

Writing is a real challenge! <`A´>

With that said, pardon my poor opening on the subject and let’s proceed straight to the question:

Would you prefer a naive or an experienced mate?

By that, I mean do you like a person who is pure and innocent or would you prefer a smart and independent partner? What do you think of them?

I’ve been reading some Japanese love stories and most of the stories that I’ve read are very typical in which the female character is very naive, clueless and spineless while the male is the more capable, have a backbone — well typically of an alpha built.

And the antagonist is usually a smart and conniving girl who pretends to befriend our simplistic protagonist and then tries to ruin the happy couple.

Sounds familiar? You might have read or watch such a story before.

What bothers me is — Why do some people think that a smart woman is necessarily evil and cunning?

There are men who love innocent, child-like girls but frowns at smart and capable women. Ok…nobody really like a sly person (man or woman) who has ulterior motives and out to cheat you or something.

But I should think that we ought not to think that experienced women are evil and always conspiring for their own gain.

Simply put to say, a smart and senior woman can be pure and innocent than you actually think they are.

I can’t remember if someone told me or I overheard by accident; a guy once said he likes the innocent type of girls because they are pure and everything is a first time to them. Cute! Whereas smarter women, there’s a fear that they may leave or they may scheme against him.

So imagine girls…If this type of guy tells you, “Mmm…you’re the smart type of girl…I prefer the innocent type.” How would you feel?

Well…if it were me, I’d knee him in his cable for implying that I’m evil and manipulative. I mean — for fuck sake, I’m not that wicked. <`A´>

Should you really come across such a guy, do not despair because there is nothing wrong in having intelligence. Do not feel defeated to girls who are ditsy and lack of experience. What really matters is how you use your knowledge and for what purposes.

The reason why some girls seem innocent is because they have yet to know anything.

Can a naive girl guarantee that once she learns that she can use her sex appeal to her advantage, she still wouldn’t resort to such means?

Imagine you are blind and can hardly sense shit. Somehow, you have fallen in love and pledged to love him with all your heart. But one day by God’s will, you have your eyesight and you found out your man is downright hideous. Would you still love him as much as you did in your blind days or would you fled?

I think..the real charm is not within a person’s innocence or how intelligent they are but instead — the choices and decisions they make based on their sincere intentions.

A smart woman may know how to flaunt her body to win people’s attention but she chooses not to because it’s demoralizing and unethical. And her decision is not simply made out of ignorance but in fact, through weighing thoughts and consequences. discovered that you are God and you can do anything you want and yet, you choose not to simply abuse your powers for selfish gains.

What I’m trying to deliver here is.. There is some pureness in a smart woman and it is her knowledge and wisdom that makes her so.

Those prepubescent girls are seemingly pure only because they have yet to know anything. Once they are aware of things, then we have to see if they use their experience for good or evil. Suppose they can retain themselves for a long time, then I tip my hat to them.

It’s all about staying true to yourself..and that’s what makes a person pure.

Now, I’m not exactly bashing young frivolous girls but I just want to introduce a perspective that is, smart women should not necessarily be considered manipulative and evil.

Baa.. <u__u>

Right now..I’m thinking of how to make this subject gender-friendly in which we can discuss about both men and women. But when it comes to smart and innocent type, it’s usually among women, right?

On a side note, Nic and I talked about this ‘Holier-than-art-thou’ type of people. Again, common within the female colony.

Yea, there are those who fence innocence just to make themselves look good and others look dirty.

They will pick out something you’ve done that an innocent girl should not do and tell you, “Oh, you’ve done that? I’ve never and would never because I’m such a goodie~”

You know, implying that you are not as holy as she is.

(Well, true I am not. Because kicking their ovaries comes easily for me.)

Ergo with that said… Questions for you boys and girls~!

Boys ♂ Which do you prefer? Mature or immature girls and what do you think of them? For you, does maturity play a major role in a relationship?

Girls ♀ → Which do you category do you belong in? Naive or Experienced? Do you feel offended when people say you are otherwise?

For the fun of it, do you know of any holier-than-art-thou people? Want to bitch about them? Go right ahead! (Laughs)

Replying to an Old Message!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Bubbly

Exactly 1 year ago, for the fun of it I wrote a message to my ‘future’ self, which some of you may remember.

Now, it’s time to unearth and reply to it~! (Laughs)

Here’s what I wrote last time! ↓

Dear 2010 Sheep,

How are you? I’m trying to picture what kind of clothes are you wearing now. A space suit? A futuristic attire? Nay! That’s absurd! It has only been a year. However at this rate and our carelessness towards the environment…it’s possible that we will have to start wearing protective suits in time to come. How sad…and tacky! <≥A≤>/

By the way, are your boobs any bigger? (Laughs) It would be nice if they have grown fuller however, I hope they are not illegal — get what I mean? <OAO>(Laughs)

Right now, I’m thinking about your well being..whether you’re happy and contented with the way things are going for you.

“Are you any closer to your dreams?
Have you fulfilled your hair of revenge?
Is Auwlithe still fat and grumpy?
Are you living in the new house now?

How are the neighbors there? Friendly and warm?
Have you been visiting Aunty Sebasti and her family?
Do you still keep in touch with Nic and Fe?
What cellphone are you currently using?
Have you made any true friends?
Are you seeing anyone special?

…Are you still as lonesome as ever?”

Well, I know I won’t be able to get your answers immediately. It’s going to take a year to finally get those questions answered. But don’t worry, I’ll patiently wait for your reply for I know, it takes time for those answers to take place.

In this letter, I can only tell you how is it like to be ‘me’ right now, who is 21 years old and still calls herself a sheep. (Laughs)

I have no complaints being me because I’m very comfortable with the way I am. Although not many people agree with my behavior and resentment towards humans, I’m able to dismiss their disapproval and carry on living with myself let it be if I’m alone.

I always believe that no one should force themselves to hop on the band wagon just because everyone else is doing it. People lose themselves when they do so. Also, they have to live with such a pretentious life. <TAT>

Anyway, for your sake — I hope you have found peace in yourself and able to live without any guilt and insecurity by now. Most importantly, live your life well. Do good no matter what.

One more thing: Please continue to blog at PaperDiaries even when no one is supporting you. Blogging has become a hobby that you enjoy so much. It would be a waste if you stop because of other people’s influence. <u__u>

Well, on top of all that has been said, I hope you are living a good life and by now, have someone special to hold dearly to. Though I don’t encourage you to be in a relationship yet. I think one year of acquaintance is still too green. Let’s wait for another couple of years, shall we? By then, we can start interrogating 2011 sheep! <^v^>/ (Laughs)

Before I end my message, it seems there are a few more messages from your friends. ↓

* Names are concealed for protection

I’m not sure if there will be messages from your blog readers as well but by any means, please read them with an open heart~

Thank you and see you soon~!

Hugs and kisses,

2009 Sheep 

Reminder: This message is scheduled to be unearthed on the 19th December 2010, night. (Laughs)

Well to begin with…


In fact! <OAO>

I suspect it has shrunk! <TAT> (Cries)

Don’t ask for more details, please! I just feel that it has disappeared and am reluctant to wrap the measuring tape around for confirmation. <≥A≤>

As for the following… ↓

  1. Are you any closer to your dreams?
    What dreams..Oh! ‘That’ dream. Still far from it. <^-^>
  2. Have you fulfilled your hair of revenge?
    It’s not exactly the length that I’m striving to reach but it’s much longer now. Going to keep this up! (Pumps up!)
  3. Is Auwlithe still fat and grumpy?
    He still is! Now I call him a ‘Tub’ because he seems to be like one! The sad thing is, he’s getting older. <;__;> I hope he can live as long as I do because I’ll definitely die of loneliness without my dear, dear baby!
  4. Are you living in the new house now?
    Yes, living in a beautiful and cozy home. <^-^>/
  5. How are the neighbors there? Friendly and warm?
    At first, some of them were. But after the dog incident, they seem cold towards us.
  6. Have you been visiting Aunty Sebasti and her family?
    Still do. In fact, will be seeing them next week!
  7. Do you still keep in touch with Nic and Fe?
    Yes. We are chatting actively on Facebook and made calls via Skype to keep in touch. Next month, Fe will be coming back to PJ so there’s a chance of meeting up again!
  8. What cellphone are you currently using?
    No changes to my cellphone. My Samsung Star is in tip-top condition and there’s simply no excuse to replace it!
  9. Have you made any true friends?
    Well…I do have some good companions to talk and be talked to. Quite thankful that they talk to me sometimes. <^-^>
  10. Are you seeing anyone special?…Or……Are you still as lonesome as ever?
    (Laughs nervously) N-Nobody..Not a single prospect! <ºAº>lll S-should I start digging out my old contacts and check on them? (Laughs nervously)

Truthfully, there hasn’t been much changes since last year. My life has been pretty stagnant and nothing so big has yet to take place.

However, I’m very thankful for the short and little events that has happened. I got a taste of working life. In spite it was just a short period of time, it was a good experience and am looking forward to start working outside again. (More on this another time~!)

And then, I got to meet Nic-sempai, Spit and Yannie too~! (Laughs)

Well overall, year 2010 has been rather kind and lenient with me. <≥ω≤>

I hope next year, there will be more happenings to come~!

I also wish that everyone enjoyed this year much more than I did and may the coming year do you good~!

Maybe you’re saying, “I’m not into this whole New Year resolution” or Every year is the same old shit” however, isn’t it nice to know that you’re still walking this Earth after a year has gone by? Which means there is still a chance to pursue a goal or a dream?

(Laughs nervously) I’m not one to speak of such matters but even so, let’s be positive. <^-^>/

[ . . . ]

Sheep better make a move now before blogging poorly articulated thoughts! <≥A≤>

Till next time, everyone~

In case I don’t blog sooner, I wish all of you in advance…Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year~!

Have a great year end with your friends and family~!

PS: Oh right…Another highlight for this year →  Sheep became short sighted! ↑

Mood: Kyaa!


O go kigen yo, minna-hun~!

Blogging here is the naughty sheep who went and dug out some old clothes from her closet~! ↑

The black mini skirt that you see above is quite obsolete! To think I used to wear such a short, short skirt in public! <`A´>

Well…I outgrew that skirt so much so that it just can’t cover my fat ass. <x__x> (Laughs nervously)

What I’m striving to do at the moment is to lose weight and hopefully, return to my teen size. It may be impossible because my body isn’t just fatter than before but it has changed..Unlike before, it was really a brat’s body.

Now…I wonder if I can call myself a ‘woman’. <´•ω•`> (Laughs nervously)

O youth~! Why did you leave me so soon~~~?

Ah well…

Sisters who are on the same quest…let’s work hard (literally, work hard) together in order to achieve that pretty, slender and healthy body~!

And guys!

Please cherish our efforts for we are doing this to please you~! (Ok, some of us are simply vain and don’t want to lose to other girls in terms of appearance)

Speaking of which — I finally got the Starbucks Year 2011 planner~!

In the previous weeks, I’ve been overloading myself with Starbucks coffee — just to redeem this planner!

Although I was short of 3 chops, no idea why the person just gave it to me…How kind! (Rejoices)

But I think for the time being… I’m going to stop drinking at Starbucks. <-__-> Because my true love is Coffee Bean. <^-^>v (Laughs)


Alrighty, time to stop spouting nonsense. <—ω—>/

This is the rather sleepy Ms Aya, signing out~

Have a jolly good day~!

PS: Sheep seems to be very lazy nowadays so..please pardon me if I have not replied your comments/tweets. (Laughs nervously) Such an ‘O’ blood, yea. <^-^>lll

Mood: Pumped up!

Nicknames — Don’t we all have one for ourselves? Whether it’s an abbreviation of your real name, a word that describes your identity or, some shitty name that your pals associates you with.

In short, every individual has a secondary name be it self-proclaimed or labeled by others. We can talk about 2 things here: Uno, the joy and pride of giving yourself a suitable title and duos, the sorrowful moments of being called nasty names pertaining to your flaws.

We’ll begin with the harsh names given by people and then on with the sugar names. Some people do not like to be given names, especially when the name points out an embarrassing flaw or weakness of theirs. Although it depends on how one would absorb it, aggressive name-calling is considered a form of bullying. It may seem harmless for it is something verbal, a sound passing through the air however, it shatters one’s self-esteem as hard and solid as a rock.

Nobody fancies being called “Fugly”, “Bed-wetter”, “Homo” and other derogatory terms out in the open for others to listen. For example, we’ll take an unflattering young boy as a victim to name-callings.

Why in the first place, do some people get verbal-bashings? Could they have done something to deserve such treatment? I can only think of 2 reasons: 1) Maybe you screwed up a group play on stage 2) You have a queer trait that helplessly stands out like a sore thumb and others couldn’t dismiss/resist it.

Childish yet wicked huh? Anyway resuming to our given example, let’s say this school boy isn’t very good looking; he’s sickly pale, scrawny, pigmentation all over his face and body, scruffy hair… All these causes him to be rather shy among the kids and as a result, stammers when he is in the center of attention. Because he has yet to know how to build confidence, other kids start to make fun of his funny stammers and calls him names like “Coward”, “Chicken”, “Cricky” and so on.

That’s just an early stage to it. Once kids learn more about their toy, their dictionary of insults broadens. “Freckles”, “Walking disease”, (__insert derisive names here__) — Associations that makes you want to remove all your mirrors in the house.

It is sad that there are children going through a stage like this to the point every minute of stepping out of the house is a living turmoil.  No doubt events like this need to take place in order to morph an individual into a stronger persona. It would be lovely if these kids don’t take their lives away so soon before growing to that ultimate beauty. Life in this world is unpredictable — but what makes you think you know the Afterlife any better? <.__.>

Before this entry becomes more of a Self-Improvement material, let’s move on to the brighter good of nicknames! As I have said in the beginning, nicknames are as though branding yourself.

Nicknames can be fun when used in a good and non-offensive manner. I wonder why do people call themselves this and that. For instance, why SPITxFIRE? Why Dino-chan? Why Bubuchacha? What does Krayle means? (Laughs)

It’s amusing what we proclaimed ourselves to be but it is even more interesting to know how a name came about. Perhaps you are a hot-headed guy hence the reference to fire or you’re cuddly thus relation to a cuddly animal.

Do you wonder how my ‘Sheep’ title came about? AHAKS! Sure you do! (Laughs)


You’re going to have to wait another time to unwrap this lil mystery. I can however tell you how ‘Ms Aya’ became my pen name~

Embrace yourself!

[ . . . ]

[ . . . ]

YA LAR! \<≥A≤>/

I was a silly teenager who was a fan of an anime called Weiß Kreuz. Fujimiya Aya was my favorite character →

When I started blogging, I thought of using my real name at the same time, I was worried about my personal safety. You know, the danger that lurks on the Internet? <-__->

‘Sheep’ came to mind but I wanted a more human name and after playing Hinokakera ( ), it reminded me then again of the name Aya, so I decided to use ‘Aya’. Also because the name is short and it starts with ‘A’. (Laughs nervously)

From time to time, I do think I should use a proper name seeing Ms Aya and Sheep sounds so juvenile but they are too stapled to my identity therefore, always come back to the conclusion of letting them be.

So yes, my pen name derives from Fujimiya Aya of Weiß Kreuz; not that I have any similar traits with this character or anything meaningful. (Laughs nervously)

Perhaps your nickname means something special to you? <.__.>

Well, maybe the name you use online is a mere disguise. Pet names should be more personal and meaningful as in, an abbreviation of your real name in which your parents and friends addresses you by. It reflects on the closeness of your bond with somebody. For instance, your name is Susan but your best friend calls you Sue. It’s like a code that only your best buddies know and can call you by.

Pet names are wonderful and it defines the closeness of one’s friendship. You see, being called with a fondly name can make one happy just as calling a hideous name can upset a person.

You may argue that some people are just joking and shouldn’t be taken seriously. TRUE, but it depends from whose mouth is speaking such names. If a close friend called you a ‘Fatty bum-bum’, you know that she is right but even though you’re out of shape, she still hangs out with you and is there to support you no matter your size. You trust her not to run off just because you’re big.

In other words, in spite of being completely aware of your flaws, a good and sincere friend would not be disgusted and shunned from you instantly. A true friend sees not only your flaws but as well as your good points and embraces you wholly. This is just one of my ideas of good friends. You may agree or otherwise.

So if a person who doesn’t really know you or hardly speaks to you were to tease you like that, of course you would feel offended. That person doesn’t know you and so do you know him/her enough to know if this person is really mean and out to hurt you. Does that person appreciate that despite you are not perfectly trimmed, you do have the stamina for a long marathon?

Speaking of which, now I’m thinking….Which love is stronger?

One who is blind to all of your defections and just love you for all the good you are OR.. one who knows and sees every flaw in you  yet loves you whole-heartedly?


When I wrote down this blog entry, I intended to just write about the good of nicknames and ask where do your nicknames derive from. Then it derailed and seem to focus on verbal-bullying and suddenly, a choice of love… (Laughs nervously) It snowballed along with different topics, huh? <^-^>lll

Perhaps, we shall continue this in the comments sections after you have your say~! <u__u>

Unsure where to begin? <.__.>

Do tell..

  1. Your nicknames/pet names — what do they mean? Who calls you by those names?
  2. Opinions on verbal abuse.
  3. Weirdest nicknames you’ve ever heard! (For me, names with numbers are weird! EG: Cat2130, MIL2000 — spells of spambots to me la!)

Very well — Off the sheep goes~! <^∀^>/~