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Mood - Worried

20th July 2K8, Sunday – Night time.


Hello everyone~! \<^ε^>/

How have you all been? <•ω•>/

I assume everyone is busy with their own matters. So I hope things goes well for all of you. <—υ—>o

I was going to blog about a dog that entered the church during mass today but since I couldn’t snap a picture of the dog walking around the altar… I’d better not. <¬_¬>lll

And if I had whipped out my camera during mass, I’ll be frowned upon. You see… I usually sit in the front rows where all the aunties and uncles are. Knowing them… (Sighs) They surely won’t like me doing that.

Anyway… Today I went to church in this dress~☆! ↓

White Dress from Comma//Labelz

White Dress from Comma//Labelz

Normally I wear a sweater over to cover my shoulders but for today, I decided not to. It has been a very long time since I’ve gone out in sleeveless clothes. So I thought I should give it a try. \<´v`>/

The reason why I always wear a sweater over is partially because I feel my shoulders are broad and that my arms are fat. (Years ago it was because I was too thin) Another reason is I catch cold very easily. <x__x>

Anyway, I felt FAT throughout my evening. <TAT>/

I remember last time I always wanted to put on weight. But now that I have, I hate it even more compared to the time I was thin. <=__=>lll

I think I know why I wanted to put on weight so badly. Last time, the other kids and students used to bully me and make fun of me.

They called me hideous names, insulted me, and tried to shame me for who I was.

But because they were my friends, I thought they said that out of concern. I actually believed what they were saying. So when I looked at the mirror at that time, I saw myself as how they described me.

I went into deep depression for a very long time and tried to gauge myself with food. Yet, I couldn’t put on weight. <;__;> (Cries)

However, now that I’m out of school and away from society…

I looked differently at myself now. I don’t depend on other people’s opinions to see my reflection in the mirror. What I see is how I describe myself.

And when I think about it carefully now… Those people said nasty things about me not because they cared but they simply wanted to hurt me. Perhaps they were jealous because they were bigger and fatter in size.

I can even remember those girls laughing at me when they told my crush I liked him (I wanted to keep it a secret but they blew it) and then he told them I was too thin for anything. Apparently, he said more than that but I chose not to hear. I cycled home and shut myself for days.


Back to the presence..

There’s no harm if I lose another 2kg right?

Not that I care what others said. Besides, they don’t tell out of concern. Jealousy is the main intention.

So, if any of you are facing a situation similar to this... I hope that you can be wise and listen to yourself rather than others.

I won’t say its easy because until today — I find it hard to cope with people like this. I always tell myself that it happen long time ago and those bimbos and bastards were just kids — They didn’t know what they were saying.

But to my surprise, people who are aged 18 plus, supposedly matured enough than to behave in a ridiculous manner, can still bring themselves to be such an asshole.

I don’t understand why certain people must choose to say,Hey, you’re ugly” or You’re too thin, that’s ugly” or You have lots of pimples” instead of …”.

What kind of conversation can you get from that?

I admit I do make comments but I always try to discuss a solution with them. I won’t just say You’re fat” and then end it that way.

Gosh, sometimes when people tell me these opinions out of the blue… It makes me want to tell them, “KEEP THAT KIND OF SHIT TO YOURSELF, PIE-HOLE!”



I better end this topic. However, I still want answers! (Laughs)

So with that, I’m going to the gym to workout harder! \<`A´>/

!! RAWR !!


Note: Sorry for writing selfishly. Let this entry not only be about me, ok? Share with me your experiences. Especially if you have bottled up this kind of bad memories, you can spill it here. Sheep understands!

Random note: I like Prince Nuada from Hellboy II. Why did he have to die? <;__;> (Tears)

Thanks Mau-chan!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
Mood - Hopeless

Mood - Hopeless

17th July 2K8, Thursday – 11:13+pm.


Thanks Mau-chan, for hanging out with me today. \<^ε^>/~♥

It was an impromptu trip and sorry for taking up your whole afternoon. <•ω•>

I enjoyed the outing and certainly enjoyed watching Hellboy II. (Laughs) \<´v`>/

Note: Sorry Sey-kun for borrowing Mau-chan today. (Laughs) ↓

The Genki Mau-chan

The Genki Mau-chan

Etoh… I don’t have anything in particular to blog so… End for today’s entry?




(Slowly motions away from blog)


Hypnotic Robbery

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
Mood - Normal

Mood - Normal

16th July 2K8, Wednesday – 11:30+pm.


Greetings Earthlings. (Laughs)

As promised, I shall blog about ‘Hypnotic Robbery’.

I’ve never been a victim to this so I don’t really know everything. But this is what I’ve heard so far from my neighbors.

One of my neighbors was a victim to hypnotic robbery. The aunty that my mother and I usually talk to told us that it happen to her sister.

These aunts are elderly people, say — around 60+? According to her sister (the victim), she was called from outside the house and likewise, she went to check out.

A man told her that he was selling a couple of old pots and asked if she wanted to buy. Knowing this aunty, she’s very calculative and not some one you can easily convince. After all… 2 old pots — Not like she needs them. Their house had more than enough.

However, this man managed to talk her into trading all her jewelries for the old pots. Jewelries. Does it make sense for anyone to trade their jewelries for a couple a old pots? <OAO>!!!

We all know that Jack was suckered into trading his cows for a pocket of beans but — that’s just a story. Besides, they were magic beans. <=__=>lll

Anyway… The aunty went in her house, took out all her jewelries and gave to the man without a questioned asked. Her sister who was in the house, suspect that her sister was behaving weird as though in a trance. After the man left, she asked her sister what happen and why she purchased those old pots for.

After a while, the aunty snapped out and realized she was duped BIG time.

I can imagine the feeling. You traded a box filled with jewelry for a couple of old pots. And those pots are definitely not magic pots that will grow money on trees. <T__T>

Some of you may suggest that she’s old therefore her memory isn’t good but you’re wrong. I spoke to her before. She is perfectly aware of her surroundings. I can even say that today’s teenagers are more blur than this 60+ years old aunty. (Question: Why do young people think it’s cool and cute to be blur? I’d say its stupid and pathetic)

Another case, told by my other neighbor was… This young mother was divorced and suffered a lot of financial burden.

She lives alone with her daughter and she works around the clock for survival. Until one day, a man came to her house.. spoke to her and as you can guess… She gave him some money.

But this man was very brave and greedy. He kept coming back for more money. And the woman continued to give him her money without any questions asked.

Some time later, her friend/neighbor noticed that this particular man keeps coming over to her house and take money from her. So the neighbor started asking questions about what’s going on, seeing that the scenario doesn’t look quite right.

At that very moment, the mother found out that she gave at least RM120,000 in total to that man. She also remembered that she even borrowed money from the loan sharks for that man.

And all this happen without her knowing anything. She couldn’t identify the man and whenever she talks to him, her mind goes blank.

After this discovery, she fled and moved else where — in hope to start a new life.

It is said that this was committed using hypnosis.

Well… I do believe there is such a thing. I won’t tell you in detail because I haven’t done my studies on this but the mean while…

How can we arm ourselves against this?

I don’t have answers for this too. But I’m just guessing…

  • If scent plays a role in hypnotism, then we better not inhale the stranger’s scent. It is possible that they use drugs to occupy or weaken your mind’s senses.
  • Avoid eye contact and pay attention to his/her body motions.
  • Keep a distance. You don’t want to stand too close to this kind of people.
  • Try not to let his/her words and voice get into you. It will make you think so much to the point you somehow agree with them.
  • Don’t let them talk so much. The more you let them talk, the more you’re actually considering what they’re saying. Shut them off the minute they don’t tell you anything relevant.

… I hope my dear Auwlithe can protect me!!! <≥A≤>/



What do you people think? <;__;>

Mood - Uncertain

Mood - Uncertain

15th July 2K8, Tuesday – 8:40+pm.


Greetings, everyone~ \<^v^>/

Here’s a friendly reminder: Please change our old link in your blog to this current ~ \<´v`>/~☆!

Thank you~♥

Now moving on… ↓

Young people harasing cars at the petrol station

Young people desperately stopping cars at the petrol station

Today, I went to the petrol station and there were a group of young people, trying to stop the out-going cars so that they could pass some leaflets to the drivers.

I don’t exactly know how young these people are and what exactly they’re doing because mother did not stop the car to hear them out. If I’m not wrong, these youngsters has been stationing themselves in the petrol stations, supermarket car parks and even outside the bank in this particular area — for more than a month.

The first time I had an encounter with them (not the same people in the picture) was 3 months ago, I think. I got out of the car and one of them approached me and mother, asking us to open a broacher to see if we won anything.

Lazily, my mother tore off the sticker to have found she won nothing but a ‘Thank you’ note. On the other hand, I got something more than just a mere ‘thank you’. Apparently, I won the grand prize and the young guy got so excited, he called over his buddies and told me that if I were to go to their workplace immmediately, I can claim my prize.

Was it a LCD TV I won? I can’t remember simply because I wasn’t interested. <-____->lll

Anyway, my mother and I rejected the offer. One of the insisted that he’ll sit in our car and direct us there.

Now… The reason why we rejected was obvious. <¬_¬>

They could be crooks, frauds, con mens… Whatever that involves cheating, you name it. They did show us that this contest was mentioned in the newspapers hence legal. <=__=>lll

But the real reason why we backed away was because — We were cheated before. <;__;> (Cries)

I can never forget that day, in year 2005. The year my family was suffering of poverty.

I’ll cut my long story short. They made us buy a couple of junks and then surprise — You have to make another lucky draw to see what you win. And these people did not made their terms clearly. They told us it’s compulsory to purchase their items (a portable sauna, foot massager…etc) and then only you get a shot in claiming your prizes.

For all you know, the ‘prizes‘ you brought back were PAID — by YOU. <`A´>/ξ

You PAID for them, NOT win them. <OAO>{!!!]

So if any of you came to my house before and saw a portable sauna collecting dust in the corner of the room, you know the story. My family will never purchase such a thing for the house! <`A´>/ξ

Back to the presence… <u__u>

I notice that the people doing this kind of field jobs are young people. Perhaps they’re school leavers or doing a part-time job. However, I can’t help but to ponder whether they know what they’re doing.

Not to say I look down on them but more of pity them. They have to stand out in the open and stop people just to sell/advertise whatever they’re selling. Knowing what kind of society we’re living in today, people are too busy in their fast-pace lives to the point they hardly look or stop for anything else other than their own destinations.

Besides, do these young people feel that this kind of jobs has a giant FRAUD label on it? <+__+>lll

… Because they are young and they look like they don’t know anything… I hope they get a better job. A decent.. practical job. <T__T>lll

(Sighs) On my part, I do try to stop and listen to these people. However most of the time, I find my approachers looking like con mens and crooks. Otherwise, why do they only approach me and no one else?

Maybe because I’m usually all alone and they figure I make an easy victim. <-__->lll

Oh well, if you have read this far…

Please be careful when you’re out alone or even when you’re with friends.

Bad guys are becoming more aggressive and daring lately.

Of course, if children or students approaches you for donation to their clubs/schools/activities, please DON’T turn them away. <u__u,>

I’m done for now.

There’s another case I’ll like to share with everyone. It’s about ‘Hypnotic’ robbery.

I’ll get to that soon, all right?

Before I go… Here’s a picture of a car model I saw today at Aeon City (Jusco)~☆ ↓

Car Model at Aeon City

Car Model at Aeon City

And my outfit for today~☆! ↓

A pink sweater and grey skirt.

A pink sweater and gray skirt.

(Laughs) I’ll update the blog soon. <^ε^>/

Right after I’m done watching WWE Raw and a movie~♥ \<^v^>/