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Dear readers and stumblers,

It has been a tremendously long time since my last update. If you were to read my previous posts, you will notice that I start my sentences with “hey it’s been a long time.” (Laughs) It seems that I visit my blog once a month.

Anyway, I wonder if everyone is having a good time. We are already in the month of June and damn, time is surely moving fast. A lot of things are happening globally such as earthquakes, boats capsizing, plane crashes and so on. It is so unfortunate for those who are going through such disasters.

As for those who are save from the above terrors, we too still have our individual struggles to go day by day.

Sigh… Speaking of individual struggles, I am having several of my own. Since last month, life has been so suffocating for me. The work load is fine however, it’s the people and all the interaction with them that is suffocating me somehow. Apart from that, some people turned out to be major disappoinments and annoyances which makes me want to just pick up my feet and run as far as I can go. In addition, I got myself attached to some people and soon they are going to leave me. I am.. Sadly not a person who can bear farewells as I fear getting abandoned, despite being someone who prefers to be alone, once I have some sort of fondness, I become a little sheep wanting its sheperd.

Bottomline, life is pretty languid on my side. (´・_・`)

… But I will manage it somehow. It’s just a matter of setting emotions aside and things will be alright again.
It’s funny. I always thought that emotions will help to push a person forward, like how desire fuels a person. But the way it appears, emotions does nothing but creating stumbling blocks.

If that is what emotions does to me, I rather not feel a thing regardless of how heartless it’s going to be. Afterall, this is an individual battle so it concerns no one, nay?

Anyway, I got to go now.

Hope you are faring way better than me in life!

Toodles!

Hello, people of the world!

This is Ms Aya who is feeling languid and having lots of questions in mind. While I try to divert my attention from all this towards work, everything seems futile and thoughts are worsening instead.

Many a times, I get people telling me that I am innocent and naive to which I do not understand how they can perceive me that way. I have been telling them that I am not however to no heed and they always think that I am being polite and modest over it.

I know what kind of thoughts I conjure and how malicious they get but at the end of the day, nothing manifests because I always make good decisions that does not involve too much evilness.

People and friends are encouraging me to talk to them about my problems. I do tell them that I am having problems but I never emphasize and apparently this frustrates people leading them to think this is my fault and own causing in the first place.

I always stay by this thought that I should never seek anyone at my vulnerable times because that is the very time when people plant ideas and illusions that do not necessarily mean well for my or others’ being.

By the end of this post, I doubt that I will be able to reveal even a bit of what I am trying to say. :(

There is this song that goes by the lyrics of, “You don’t do anything, you’re moving but you don’t do anything. You don’t say anything, you’re talking but you don’t say anything.”

Sigh… :(

Hello, hello, hello~~

Just a super quick post because I’m too excited to do something else!

For those who are fans of Quinrose’s Heart no Kuni no Alice series, you can play it on your iphone or ipad too!

The best thing about this is — There is English subtitles!

No shit, for real! The voices remains in Japanese however the text are in English so for those who are not too literate with Japanese, this is for you~ <3

The English is slightly broken though; grammar and spelling mistakes however fathomable.

However, you need to pay (of course, it’s Apple dakara) to get the full game!

The game play is much simpler than on PSP though. You don’t have to keep visiting the other territories and count the turns as everything is led to the main events. You can still unlock Friend events by selecting the answers accordingly. Also you can switch on the Favourable Anime, which is each time you choose the good answer, a rose appears. If there is no rose animation, means you have chosen the bad answer so you have a chance of rewinding.

Oh my grod~ This is heaven for me!!!

I must say.. I’m a grown up lady but still a sucker for this (Laughs).

Well it seems that real life people are not fond of me, neither am I so this is one of the things I retreat to for comfort and entertain..

Saraba~~! :D

Liar’s Game

Posted by: Ms Ayain Diary of Ashes, Ms Aya's Papers
27
Aug

「From the day I was born, till the day I die, the only side I am on… Is my own.」

I really cannot trust anybody. It’s like I’m just waiting for the end to find out that everything was just a big cruel joke on me.

What happens, when words do not reach you anymore? When every word translates into lies and deception?

Everyone uses different words yet lead to the same lies. It’s really funny and humorous. The methods and manner of speech which they learned from self-improvement books and seminars on how to persuade — if you are already familiar with these, what other means can persuade you then?

Friends, comrades, buddies — you can talk to me with that filthy mouth of yours but that’s none of my business. I have my own goals to reach and the only side I’m ever taking is my own.