Following up to my last post, life is still filled with clusterfuck but no worries, things are getting better each time. I’m glad that my mind is powerful enough to counter negative thoughts and curve around situations.

Now I feel like ranting however in a non-specific story telling. Just gonna leave a list of advices for myself next time and for you, in case you are searching for wisdom to deal with the shit at your end.

Here goes:

The jealousy and insecurity over a guy who doesn’t seem to pay attention to you in the first place – You can either fight for his attention to notice you or wish the other puta(s) gets hit by a car or simply drop out of existence. Making ill wishes upon others is despicable and cancer for your brain cells so I won’t even tell you to indulge in such fantasies. As for doing your best to get his attention, it’s based on your discretion. If you know you have been overthinking and jumping to conclusions about him and that puta, go and make things clear. But if deep down in your heart you don’t feel he has interest in you, walk away. By right you should be turned off with him if he doesn’t show interest in you so why hang around? Set your heart free for the next guy.

The only time you are wrong is when you didn’t believe that you’re right – In conjunction with the above, there is a reason why the quote “Trust in your instinct” is overused. Because it’s fucking true. Unless you are a 10 year old kid, you won’t have enough experience to hone your instinct. But if you’re in your 20s, you should have been learning about the shit in life, enough for your gut feelings to sniff the dump from kilometers away.

The grass on the other side is greener than yours – You feel you’re not being good enough for anything while others have what you desire. This is a helpless feeling that occurs from time to time. Either you could not perform as good as the other or you have talent but people preferred the prettier face. It’s like the world is against you and despite your hardwork, the world favors someone whom you won’t deem as worthy. Well, it’s 2017. Why should you care if the grass is greener? You should have your own goals which usually no ones shares the same. You can have a green grass but I have a pink grass with sunflowers so screw your greenies.

Be glad to have brains instead of just a pretty face – Speaking of a pretty face, you should be happy that you have brains rather than being an eye candy because with the ability to think, you’ll be able to tell yourself that you need to go on a diet and how to dress up to look drop dead gorgeous. Basicallly, you can teach yourself how to look good so what is the fucking problem?

Friends – Friends who were not there in your bad days but are present to applaud you on your good days aren’t really your friends. Friends who were not there in your time of need and didn’t congratulate you for your success are also definitely not your allies.

I thought I would have plenty to rant but I can’t seem to think of anymore right now. You see, these were my shower thoughts and I had a string of ponders and conversation with myself hence decided to dump them here before they vanish.

I guess this is all for now. Until I remember or have more to ramble, take good care and lots of love!

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