Archive for September, 2012

The Ability to Emote

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Good evening, everyone!
How is life faring for you?
Any new and exciting discoveries off late? We are in September now and soon before you realize it, we will be celebrating Halloween followed by Christmas.
The movement of time is surely something amazing, nay?

Well, sheep is leading an ordinary life as always. From time to time there will be a surge of happiness and other times, I feel like pulling my hair in agony. This is indeed, a very normal way of living. <^-^>|||

Anyway at the moment, I’m pretty puzzled over a matter.

My mother was having a slight argument with her friend over the phone. Mum told me before that this friend of hers have been taking advantage of my mum. Whenever there is an event, this woman expects my mother to fetch her around and so happened my mother could not pick her up one day.

So this woman started throwing a tantrum and became spiteful towards my mother over this matter. With that, they had their confrontation.

From what I could eavesdrop, my mother repeatedly insisted her point for not able to fetch this woman and told her off how she felt about her taking advantage of their friendship. At the same time, my mother also apologized for having to speak of this matter.

“I apologize for…”, my mother went on and immediately in my head, I continued the sentence with, “…making a mistake.”

However instead, my mother finished her sentence off with, “…for hurting you.”

I was stunted for a moment.

And it occurred to me that there is such a thing called, ‘hurt’.

Everyday, I have something to apologize for be it a mistake, my carelessness, my rudeness — mostly mistakes. However I don’t think I have ever been sorry for any emotional damage or reasons so as acknowledging emotional apologies from others.

There might have been some friends who said sorry for hurting my feelings before but it scarcely ever gotten into me as this line seems like a movie quote or from a heart warming story.

Apart from that, when people say they miss, like or feel for me — I cannot seem to find a reaction to those sort of words and gestures. (Laughs nervously) With that, I often look at them oddly with that, “Ok~~~~~aaay” and have my eyes set some place else.

It’s so strange and foreign that it puzzles me.

Anyway, what about you?

When a friend says sorry for hurting your feelings, what crosses your mind?

Do you have a hard time reacting and emoting to certain approaches be it praises, compliments or a treatment from others?

For instance if you are a shy individual and suddenly someone comes up to you, how would you response? Would you accept that friendly person right away or go, “Ok~~~~~ay…I guess?”

There are many ways to trigger awkwardness and even the most common issue can get one to lose their grip in comprehending situations.

Baa… Everyone has a different way, ne? Interesting. Interesting. XD

Mood: Buzzed

Yo~oh, living beings who rely on oxygen to survive this environment!

This is Ms Aya, your frequently absent sheep who as usual… are full of nonsense. *nods pathetically*

And bringing to you today is a topic about ~~~~~~

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Well actually, I’m just wondering if I am given a chance… No no. At the very least FIVE (5) chances to undo certain events…

As in you get to undo your mistakes in the past.. or experiment on something or someone out of curiosity and then reset to its former state. <^ω^>/

The immediate ideas that come to me are mostly to try stunts rather than to undo matters in the past. Although a lot of things were in need of changes and prevention, I guess once you have grown stronger and learned to deal with it — you live on without regrets.

So anyway…

I wonder how is it like to run over a person with your car AND reverse on the buggar? <.__.>

I know this is not to be taken as a joke because car accidents are horrible and people lose their loved ones to cars and asshole drivers.

But would you sympathize a person who tried to jack your car, rob and hurt you?

Yeap, you wouldn’t.

I would very much want to run them over, reverse and repeat for another 5 rounds until they are flat on the ground.

And then should I be found guilty for my ‘self-defensed’ action, CTRL Z and use a baton instead. (Laughs)

My second would be pulling a heist. <^-^>/

You know, do a solo job of armed robbing a bank and then get the fuck out of there, be the most wanted criminal and hunted life. (By the way, I don’t play GTA) Should all else fail, CTRL Z and good morning to the bank officer.

For the remaining 3, it’s so hard to pick from and doubt you want to know them.

As to why I even think of committing crimes, it’s because I will never do these. NEVER— knowing they are irreversible.

Also if given the same opportunity to undo things, why would you want to do something good and then undo them?

Pff. Good deeds are something that you want them to stay and be long lasting. Therefore undoing them is a waste. However, it is ironic that people forget the good deeds and kindness that you’ve showed them.

Sigh, spouting nonsense as always.

Time to go.

Until next time. <´•__•`>