Archive for July, 2011

Mood: Mad


Imagine… You are going through a difficult time.. In this situation, maybe you failed an exam or an unfortunate incident happened to you. <x__x>

Upset and in despair, you go to a friend or a family member to seek comfort and consolation. At this point you really need encouragement and a comeback however you can’t seem to bounce out of this gloom on your own.

So your buddy tries to revive your spirits and keep you positive but negativity overwhelms you. Well, you are deeply effected and saddened so much so you just can’t help but to counter every word with negativity and excuses to remain in this depressing state.

Then… your buddy says, “Hey! There are others who failed/are in a more terrible situation than you!”

“Sucks to be them…”, is what you may mumble under your breath. 

Or if you are feeling very sore, self-centered and the whole world is being unfair to you at the moment, perhaps you’ll snap back, “So!? What have THEY got to do with ME!?”

Otherwise, you might feel relief that others are going through the same unfortunate situation as you do and finally able to eat some cakes.

Personally, I don’t react well when people try to cheer me up along the lines of “who-and-who is doing worse than you!”

In fact it angers me! <`A´>/

I dislike when people expect me to cheer up after learning that other people are suffering the same situation or much worse because — you are asking me to rejoice upon other people’s misery! <`A´>/

I understand that you want me to be grateful that I’m not in total loss and despair as some other people however, it’s hard to find comfort and consolation in someone else’s misfortune. <´•__•`>

It just doesn’t feel right. <´•__•`>

Instead, I hope those people who are enduring the same problem or a great ordeal to pull through and may they find their solution and happiness.

I won’t say I’m so unselfish to think this way at the same time I don’t have that mentality of wanting to save just my own ass. Although I may not be able to relief these people of their worries, I certainly do not want to harp over their miseries to make myself feel any better.

With that said, please don’t ever tell me the grass on the other side is dying. Just — hug me and say, “Talk to me when you feel like it.” Of course, say this only if you mean it. (Laughs)


Sheep wonders… Is it wrong to think and see it this way? <´•__•`>

Oh well… What do you think? <.__.>

↑ Tomorrow — Sheep in Wonderland~! (Laughs)

As We Grow, Life Changes

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Yawn


How is everyone feeling? <´•ω•`>

Is there anything you are very enthused about? Or nervous because there are exams waiting for you to crack over? <´∀`>ノ

In any case, I very well hope everyone is doing fine and dandy~

On my part… Thankfully sheep is less upset and seem to be regaining her spirits. A good night’s sleep is the best cure to ‘restarting’ the mind’s gear! In all honesty~!

With this said, do try to turn in early for the night instead of staying all night drowning in worries~

Anyway today… I had  lunch with a colleague and she told me bits and pieces of her marriage. Ever since I begun working here, I’ve been hearing words like ‘parents’, ‘wives’, ‘husbands’ and ‘children’ a lot. It’s a school — Of course those words crop up like mushrooms!

The thing is — Some of my colleagues are already married and they share a glimpse about their husbands (Well, majority of the staffs are women).

So after I had lunch with my colleague, I can’t help but to feel odd because — Husband talk?

I thought only 30+ year old people talk about their spouses— 

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Please let me rephrase: Only women talk about their husbands. We know darn well husbands don’t talk about their wives (unless they want to do their dick measuring to see who scored the best babe OR mighty scared their wives find out about their secret cubicle bitching).


So I then remembered that my colleague is more senior than me; so is the rest of the staffs. In addition, I realized that I am in this new phase in life in which the subjects of interest changes.

You know… When you are in kindies to elementary school — You talk to your mummy about that boy you like in school.

Then in secondary school, you have ‘crushes’ and may even have ‘boyfriends’.

In University, they are still known as boyfriend(s) — well.. A truly privileged boyfriend(s) with exclusive treatment.

Thereafter, we may now pronounce you, “Husband and wife~

Currently I am in the after-20-years-old dating stage. Come to think of it, I have not been listening to girly gossips on who-is-having-a-crush-on-who anymore. They just don’t reach my ears anymore and this has made me understand why adults couldn’t seem to care of such things anymore.

Uno, it doesn’t concern them (provided their daughter is being fiercely pursued by a horny teenage boy). Duos, they have their own level of gossips.

Eventually we grow out of old habits and routines, correct? <.__.>

Style changes. Topics changes. Priority changes. Preference changes.

The point is — you will go very far in life, maybe at a fast pace too without realizing and once you do stop to let events seep in, you will find out that you’ve changed — or not, but the environment that surrounds you most definitely has evolved (Heaven forbids — The world deteriorates and every living being mutates into a vicious zombie out for live meat — GAAAH! Ma ta ro!”

From talking about anime and games to husband talk — that’s a big leap for me! (Laughs) I mean — When I was younger, I did interact with adults however they do not discuss about their husbands to me — rather, they gloat about their children and how adorable they are. <-__->

Anyway I’m a bit stunted at the moment and I foresee there will be tons of family talks ahead of my days. I guess my youth is expiring soon.. (Laughs nervously)


I can always come home, eat a pack of Skittles and become a 9 year old again! You too, when you’re happy, you’re happy and that makes you youthful. Keep this in mind! 

Oh right, since this entry is about age — I might as well lump this topic which I intended to blog on a separate entry. 

Sorry to keep you here for long? Sheep will be quick — promise! <´•ω•`>/

Working in this environment, I meet people of all ages. Young, same age, old — Just when you think it’s a great pool of people to socialize with.

However for some of us… we seem to only be attracted to people of a certain age.

Perhaps you get along better with your friend’s parents than your school mates. Or you prefer to hang out with the kids in the playground than to join your office folks.

Pretty sure you noticed that your friends mostly consist of a particular age, either older, younger or as old as you are.

Well I think that initially, we commence by making friends who are in the same year as we do. For one, when we go to school we are grouped according to age and then put in the same class. So naturally we start our friendship building in our classroom.

Then we slowly connect to other classmates who are also in the same year. From there, our social network expands and we mingle with people of all ages.

But why do we have this connection to people of a particular age?

Example, why is he so popular among the younger girls and why does the seniors hang out with that junior girl!?

You know, that sort of thing?

Well my hypothesis would be…

It’s all about your maturity level.

Suppose you are more interested in life after college, you would prefer to hang out with your working seniors to learn and get insights of working life.

So as for children lovers (No, I don’t mean pedophiles and cougars mind you!),  you naturally have the ability to deal with them than with a fully grown adult.


This will be as far as I explain my hypothesis because..

As promised — Sheep shall not keep you here any longer therefore today’s questions~~~!

1. What stage in life are you in now? As in what kind of topic mostly surrounds you?

2. What do you think will always be your interest in conversation? Games? Celebrities? Gossips on your friends *naughty naughty*

3. Which age group do you feel most comfortable with and which is lesser?

4. Do guys talk about girls? <.__.>

5. If someone were to pay you $100 to drink 5 cans of coke and follow up with 5 somersaults, would you take up this wage?

5. … Do you find sheep being a nuisance online? (Laughs nervously)

PS: I see very long replies in the previous entries. Sheep will try to reply as soon as possible. With this sudden surge of happy energy, sheep is going to abuse it by running in circles ergo.. see ya~

Why o Why o Why

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Languid

In reply to a certain tweet:

“What made you began to write over the internet and look there for someone special ?”

I won’t say I blog so that I can connect to my special somebody out on the Internet.

I just want to write the things I couldn’t say in person or never had the chance to do so. You see, as a person I see myself as a hideous being which no one will ever pay enough interest to engage a conversation with. Besides I don’t speak as good as I do in writing and I am usually quite slow in responding. I behave rather awkwardly in person too!

Blogging for me is to reveal my inner self in a way however, it might seem misleading as I may not appear to be how I really am as a person. In other words, my writing and behavior may not match the impression you may have initially formed. One thing is for certain, my thoughts and feelings remain the same despite how my words and actions may differ.

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Oh gosh, sheep is so emo at the moment! <´•___•`>

Pardon me for blogging very negative entries off late. Something is awfully wrong and bothering me for which I can’t seem to speak of.

I hope.. you all are happier than me. It sucks to be languid and crabby, you know.

That said, hope to bounce back to enthusiasm and blog lively entries for you peeps behind the screen~♥

PS: Auwlithe says, “Hi!”

“Please feed me!” (Laughs)

Bumping! Bumping! Bumping!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Fatigue hence dummified!

Good afternoon!

Sheep has nothing in particular to blog today. Just here to bump! (Laughs)

Well my so-called ‘Blog retirement’ is such an eyesore hence.. I’d like to bump that dumb entry to the back of the pages by spamming lots of useless blog posts. (Laughs nervously)

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Watch out~!