Archive for January, 2011

Facebook Paranoia

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Dreamy

Oisu, good people of the webs~!

I did mention on Twitter that I’m going to blog about how one may get paranoid over Facebook, didn’t I? <´•ω•`>

Well this is something I am not sure if you and others would feel the same because as you know…Sheep is a worrywart, always paranoid over…anything. <_   _>lll (Laughs nervously)

Paranoid in the sense that I’m worried what is being posted on to my page and what I’m being tagged into by my friends. I think some of you may relate to this matter. Sometimes, you just want to take a day off from logging into your Facebook. You know, you don’t want to be in the equation of the many people who are addicted and glued to Facebook, posting nonconstructive comments, liking stolen quotes or skimming pass the music videos in which nobody gives a shit.

However..your hands get itchy.

Ok, you don’t necessarily have to log into Facebook to check if anyone has made any remarks on your latest post. You could check your e-mail and if your inbox is empty, no anticipation. Even if there are some comments, you could read directly from your inbox without opening Facebook.

But nooooo…You were tagged into a photo.

“What photo? Oh nuuu! I might look horrible in it! Better check it out! Don’t want who-and-who to see me in an unflattering state!”

And off you go to Facebook with your fingers crossed.

Thankfully, it was not the kind of photos that you feared getting exposed. It was just one of those funny joke-of-the-day pictures that people viral.

If your friends are not one of those people who simply and anyhow tag anybody into photos, you can feel relief I guess. But if you have those trigger happy type, then you could get paranoid AND annoyed for eternity. (Laughs)

This may not be much of a big deal to sweat over as it depends on what kind of friends you have on your Facebook. There are ass clowns who would dig up shit photos and news about you and then post it for the rest to view. These are the contacts I’d put my guards up.

Although nothing of that sort has happened, there are just some people whom you know you can’t trust in keeping secrets and stuffs.

To say that I want to keep a low profile would contradict the fact that I blog and tweet openly for anybody to read. And to say that I have something to hide is not exactly right as well. It’s just that if there is something I want others to know or see, I’d prefer it come from my own mouth rather than the influences of others.

Stories changes as one passes to another. <u__u>

Oh well…Speaking of photos, sheep is just damn paranoid la. I don’t really like people snapping photos of me because I don’t know how to smile and act natural. <;__;> No way is sheep photogenic!

I kind of envy how people can look good in photos and in person. As well as those who don’t give a fuck about such things. <^-^>lll


Another reason I get paranoid over Facebook is its ability to share content.

Websites like Failblog, Photobucket and Mangafox has this ‘Like’ button when on clicking it, you have allowed it to post onto your page, sharing the content to your friends. With the intention to share, this makes a pretty convenient feature.

However, I heard that for some pages, there’s a virus that once you give it permission to post or share, it will do it without your consent or something. So when I’m surfing on webs, I get paranoid that I might accidentally click those buttons and who knows what embarrassing junk will appear on my page.

There was a time before Facebook, I accidentally clicked an ad which led me to a porn site.

Freaked off my pants~!

(Just so you know, my extend of porn exposure is in small GIF’s. Never really watched the real stuff)

Nowadays, ads can be so darn sneaky as to suddenly appear, as though it knows where you’re about to hit the right-click. (Bull-eye! We caught you, dirty fool!)

Bloody nuisance.. <x__x>

Because of this incident, I got mighty careful with such things especially now that it can be posted in Facebook so easily. <u__u>

[ . . . ]

Facebook is not all bad as I make it seem. This is just my insecurity speaking. (Laughs nervously)

I would like to say that as much as I sometimes feel that Facebook is a bother (lazy to make replies), I’m thankful that it has helped me to reconnect with some old friends. Last weekend, I met up with my ex-primary school mates, Selene and Lexxie.

And then there’s Yannie too…which..I forgotten to snap his picture — again…<^v^>lll


This, sheep is thankful! <^v^>/

So with that said, is there anything about Facebook that makes you paranoid?

What do you like and hate about Facebook?

How addicted are you to Facebook?

Do you even have a Facebook account?

Oh yea, those who have the same paranoia as me — what you can do is try not to post too much. You’ll only attract unwanted attention if you post a lot of things. I mean — control your posting if you don’t enjoy finding spams or ‘dangerous conversations’ in your inbox.

PS: Something I noticed..You know an FB newbie when he/she makes a joke about how Facebook is all about the Face and a Book. Lameness!

Nightmares for 4 Nights!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Scared


Blogging to you is a very low spirited Ms Aya who is having troubles sleeping.

“Has it anything to do with your pillow?”

Well no..My pillow’s comfy and drifting into Slumberland is easy however — it’s where my mind has been wandering off to!

In the last 4 nights, consecutively, I’ve been having very disturbing dreams.

First dream, I was trapped in a huge arcade arena; couldn’t get out and the place was dark and noisy.

Second, I was trapped in somebody’s house and was humiliating myself endlessly by being all clumsy and frivolous without my consent.

Third, I was trapped in a supposedly shopping complex which had rooms leading to another — These dreams were annoying in the sense they were long and constantly keeping me quarantined under uncomfortable places and situations.

However last night’s dream was a terrible nightmare.

Would you care to listen?

Well I’ll do my best to keep it short and concise.

In this dream, I appeared to be a teacher cum school counselor and the high school students were very fond of me. It’s funny to think myself as a teacher and counselor but it was even more weird that I could fly and nobody seemed to bother about it.

In dreams, my flying feels like..Do you know the game Quake? →

There’s a cheat mode which enables you to tamper the gravity and allows you to fly and float through walls.

So anyway — Me…A flying teacher whom the pupils adore and respect.. What’s so scary about that? I’m not the one doing homeworks… (Laughs nervously)

Well.. There was a creepy female student who was rather obsessed over me. No details were filled up in the dream as to why she was clinging on to me — you might have had such dreams before whereby you seem to already know your role, as though it’s your alternate life you’ve been living subconsciously.

I’m going to fast forward to the ‘scary’ part.

This student tried to trick me into standing near the train doors. We were inside along with other people and somehow, I could sense that something bad was about to take place. With that, I inched my way from the door and the next thing I knew — Another train came crashing!

It was as if my train was in a cross junction and the other train just slammed right through us!

I watched 4 nuns and a man in a suit got blown by the deadly impact. The visual and moment felt so real, much more realistic than of those you see in the movies.

My legs wobbled in fear so I picked myself up carefully and motioned to the lifeless corpses that were covered in blood. And then I remembered that the vile student was hit directly by the other train. Her body was no where to be seen. Without much thoughts for her, I called for help and counted the people that were in the cabin.

I thought I got the right number of people until someone said I missed a head — which was her, who emerged out from the darkness of where the train was struck.

At this point, I tried to wake up. But it was helpless and somehow, the event restarted at one point where I had to go through the same thing. I could learn from my previous mistake and prevent certain things or amend happenings but it was really tiring and annoying. Everything I tried to change had new possibilities and obstacles.

I don’t know how I got up from this dream. When I woke up, I was scared to think, go to the toilet and even to look into the mirror because I was afraid of what I might see. You know, your mind plays tricks on you when you are mentally vulnerable.

And if that wasn’t enough, I had a second round of nightmares when I resumed to my sleep.

What the heck!?


What’s going on!?

Could it be…Sheep is in spiritual danger? (Cries) <;__;>

I hope tonight I won’t have nightmares..Is there anything you can do to prevent them?

What would you do or think if you get nightmares for a few days in a rows?

PS: Before I slept, I spoke to my brother on the phone. He told me he was going to sleep soon, and so did I. Then I asked him out of curiosity, if we were to sleep at the same time, will we have the same dreams? Then he said, “You stupid! I was wondering the same thing too!”

I hope..he didn’t have any nightmares last night…Really do hope so… <u__u>

The Sheep — Cooks?

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Languid

Hello everyone~♥!

A short entry if you may~ \<^ε^>/

Sheep is not one who does the cooking in the house. I’m more of the ‘order’/'take out’ type. (Laughs)

But I don’t think I can keep doing that, can I? (Laughs nervously)

As a lady, I should know how to cook because well…For one, knowing how to cook is very handy and a life saver (not to mention, money saver as well). Home cooked food is the best and you can’t tire of it (Unless the home chef has a really horrible palate). In addition, much healthier and it saves you the trouble from having to go out for every meal!

It’s a good living skill~☆☆!

So anyway, I cooked my own meal last week~☆! ↓

It’s Beef and Bamboo in Oyster Sauce. Recipe from Whimsical Buddies blog.

I cooked this dish twice, with mum’s guidance. *Thanks Mummy dear*

Well this dish isn’t all that hard to cook. In fact, it’s very simple and quick for bums like me. <^-^>lll

The difficult part is the chopping board. There are methods on how you should cut your meat and vegetables. The size and thickness/thinness determines how well the food turns out. Don’t forget — Timing and precision as well. For kitchen virgins, you might be slow in slicing but if you cook often, you’ll get the hang out of it.


Well…I’m going to dedicate my Sundays to cooking…most — of the Sundays. (Laughs nervously)

[ . . . ]


Actually, I’m pretty depressed at the moment and am trying to keep my mind occupied just so to escape certain thoughts. And this shouldn’t be an excuse to write a sloppy entry. I’m wasting everyone’s time, right?

Anyway, have a good week and — appreciate home cook food, ok? (Laughs)

Oh, if you do cook — can you spare any good tips for newbies like me? Like how to handle a knife and all that?

And if you aren’t a kitchen lover, well…When do you plan on learning how to cook and differentiate onions and garlics? <^∀^>/

Any funny or interesting kitchen stories?

Just for giggles… ↓


Mood: Chatty

Good day everyone! <^x^>/

I heard that today is a holiday for us Malaysians! I don’t know what the occasion is but I’m thankful because our fellow citizens could stay home and rest — and traffic-free throughout the entire day! (Laughs)

At the moment, I’m doing my best to trim my body to a much smaller proportion! (Laughs)

I managed to lose some weight and oh boy, I’m so happy about it that I’ve been marching around the house as though there’s a parade going on.

However, however —- There always must be 1 thing that stands in the way of happiness. (Stupid stumbling block, ya?)

In my case now — It’s hair fall.

You see, when you diet, eating less means less nutrient intake. It depends on what is your diet menu. If you are eating only 1 meal a day, then you’re going to lack somewhere in your nutrient tank.

I’m not a doctor nor certified to speak on nutrient consumption but I was told before that dieting could lead to hair thinning and hair fall.

And shit, it’s happening to me now (–again) <x__x>

Today I read the newspaper and there were several articles on hair fall among ladies.

In one of the articles, the passage went along something like… ↓

For men to be bald is not so bad and it’s acceptable. There are bald men who are far more good looking than those with a bush of hair. (Wentworth Miller♥, Dominic Purcell, Michael Jordan, David Beckham — these men pull off well with clean-shaved heads)

However for women, it’s a strict no-no.

Flat chested women are far better off than bald women. Of course, we know that there are unfortunate victims of cancer; let’s pardon them please.

What I’m saying is — Hair fall crisis is very terrifying for women because we love our hair (and so do men).

My hair fall is pretty minor, thankfully..But it’s just annoying.

You know, seeing a strand of hair dangling off your shoulder. You know that hair is detached from your scalp because the rest of your hair are above your shoulder, how can 1 be longer than the others?

Even more annoying is having to pluck your hair brush and pick those fallen strands off the floor.


Every strand of hair on our head is a precious jem! Why can’t the hair on our legs and armpit hair fall instead!? Mustache, pubic hair — whatever. Lose them! Imagine how happy we all would be!

Just when I thought I’m down with 1 quest, another problem arises! It’s like you have 5 pots but only 4 lids; can’t cover and solve everything at once!

This problem of mine is really trivial and petty actually. I’m just being paranoid AND a vain pot. There are people who are going through even more tough times whereby they have so many things going on and so little time/resources to deal with them.

It’s so difficult to keep things in line the way you want them. The helplessness of not being able to be in control.

Maybe you’re having a splendid time of your life and in your eyes, everything is operating according to your wish but somewhere deep in you, you’re silently crumbling because there is still something missing; a void.

Anyway, if you’re having hair fall problems cum dieting crisis — Sheep is sorry because she does not have a solution to them. Perhaps…Just don’t get too carried away with your diet and seek professional help if your hair is falling dramatically.

It’s not to be taken lightly. <-__->

And then — For all of you who are having other troubles that is ruining your happiness…Try to focus on the half milk that is left in the cup rather than half-gone?

Well..making a move now. I apologies for the sloppy and leading-to-no-where writing. Can’t seem to set my head straight. <@_@> It shouldn’t be an excuse though.

Oh well, till next time~♥ <`ω´>/

Baa-bai~♥! <^ω^>/

PS: Not sure if I’m half-dreaming but are these stretched marks on my stomach? You could probably tell me if I were to provide a picture on it but if they really are stretched marks like those after baby production, my cheeks will burn in embarrassment. <x__x> Oh, so paranoid!

In all seriousness, is it possible to have stretched marks after reducing weight? Is it? <;__;> (Cries)

PPS: Sorry, kind of lazy to stick emoticons on this entry. But I’m pretty sure you can fathom out the tone of this entry right? <^v^>

Ok…I just got to know that it was only my state that had a day off, not all over Malaysia..Too bad. <x__x>