Archive for December, 2010

Mood: Retarded

Hola, ever lovely boys and girls~!

Look at sheep who is all ready to go for the countdown party~! ↓

Y~ay! \<^∀^>/~

Wahahahahaha! LET’S BOOGIE~! (← this sounds so 80′s!)
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Ok, that’s a fib. I’m not attending any parties.. I was just trying out the dress I bought this afternoon.

Isn’t it lovely~? <^ω^>o (Laughs)

Well, sheep doesn’t go to parties so…like always, I stay home and either watch TV, read or sleep early. <^-^>lll

Anyway for the rest of you, have a good time outside and please don’t get too wild ok?

That said…

Happy New Yearmy lovelies~!

May you have an absolutely wonderful beginning and may we go through the year together~!

Yours Sincerely,

Ms Aya the Sheep~

Abai yo!

In the Hospital with Mummy

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: A little bit worried


This is Ms Aya your lil sheep who is at the moment in the hospital with her mum!

Well mum have an annoying thyroid residing at the side of her neck…


Let me rephrase that: ‘Had’ — because it was removed earlier this afternoon.

↑ Mum, before the operation and her kind friend who stayed and prayed for her.

When mum was sent to the Operation Theater, my knees went weak and was of course, worried for her sake. The doctor said the only danger in this operation was there is a very fine nerve which he should be careful not to cut because it will cause her voice to change. <´•__•`>

Other than this, no worries. <—ω—>

We told my uncle about this matter and he said, “Cool, she might come out and sing like Elvis Presley!”

Oh~ Wouldn’t that be totally awesome~? (Laughs)

So for 2 hours plus, I waited around with her friend and we hoped everything would go swell.

By God’s grace, she came out, although looking pale and tired — mum was fine and still, that same annoying voice. <^-^> (Laughs nervously)

Now all there is left is for her to fully recover. And from now onwards…

She will be taking medication for life.

Wow right?

Imagine the cost of medical supplies and having to pop pills daily; It’s a torture. Therefore we must really take good care of our health so that we may part the world gracefully and not live in so much of pain.

Baa~ <u__u>

Anyway for the fun of it…Would you like to see how a thyroid looks like?

Nah, have a look~! ↓

This bugger…is cancerous! Thank goodness it is out of my mother’s neck! \<≥A≤>

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Looks disgusting, huh? <´•__•`>

It’s about the size of my palm. <T_T>

Imagine a fat fucker inhabiting your body..and growing hair too… 


Oh well… If I were to tell you to eat proper and healthy food, there aren’t food which are 100% free from harmful chemicals. One of my relatives who has been a vegetarian for life died of cancer so with that said, feasting on only vegetables isn’t a surefire shield from cancer and diseases.

So what can be said?

I can only tell you not to take signs for granted. Let’s say you feel there is something not right in your body, a lump that shouldn’t be there — do not carelessly dismiss it. That could be your cause of suffering/death in time to come.

That said, please heed to such matters ok?

Good~ <^ε^>

Sheep is going to make a move now. \<—ω—>

Take care, everyone~!

From the desk of Ms Aya~

PS: Staying overnight in the wad with mum…Shit..where am I to sleep!?

Naive vs The Experienced

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Bonkers

Good day, everyone!

I’ve been meaning to blog about this question a very long time ago however, each time I try to get it on my paper — all thoughts mysteriously vanish, as though I have my very own Bermuda Triangle at the back of my head. <TДT>

And just now, I tried to summon the ‘writer’ side of me but ended up wasting an hour writing a couple of useless paragraphs, another hour gone to looking intently at the paper in hopes that words will magically emerge out of nowhere and —- 5 seconds to draw a raging sheep. <-__-> ↓

Writing is a real challenge! <`A´>

With that said, pardon my poor opening on the subject and let’s proceed straight to the question:

Would you prefer a naive or an experienced mate?

By that, I mean do you like a person who is pure and innocent or would you prefer a smart and independent partner? What do you think of them?

I’ve been reading some Japanese love stories and most of the stories that I’ve read are very typical in which the female character is very naive, clueless and spineless while the male is the more capable, have a backbone — well typically of an alpha built.

And the antagonist is usually a smart and conniving girl who pretends to befriend our simplistic protagonist and then tries to ruin the happy couple.

Sounds familiar? You might have read or watch such a story before.

What bothers me is — Why do some people think that a smart woman is necessarily evil and cunning?

There are men who love innocent, child-like girls but frowns at smart and capable women. Ok…nobody really like a sly person (man or woman) who has ulterior motives and out to cheat you or something.

But I should think that we ought not to think that experienced women are evil and always conspiring for their own gain.

Simply put to say, a smart and senior woman can be pure and innocent than you actually think they are.

I can’t remember if someone told me or I overheard by accident; a guy once said he likes the innocent type of girls because they are pure and everything is a first time to them. Cute! Whereas smarter women, there’s a fear that they may leave or they may scheme against him.

So imagine girls…If this type of guy tells you, “Mmm…you’re the smart type of girl…I prefer the innocent type.” How would you feel?

Well…if it were me, I’d knee him in his cable for implying that I’m evil and manipulative. I mean — for fuck sake, I’m not that wicked. <`A´>

Should you really come across such a guy, do not despair because there is nothing wrong in having intelligence. Do not feel defeated to girls who are ditsy and lack of experience. What really matters is how you use your knowledge and for what purposes.

The reason why some girls seem innocent is because they have yet to know anything.

Can a naive girl guarantee that once she learns that she can use her sex appeal to her advantage, she still wouldn’t resort to such means?

Imagine you are blind and can hardly sense shit. Somehow, you have fallen in love and pledged to love him with all your heart. But one day by God’s will, you have your eyesight and you found out your man is downright hideous. Would you still love him as much as you did in your blind days or would you fled?

I think..the real charm is not within a person’s innocence or how intelligent they are but instead — the choices and decisions they make based on their sincere intentions.

A smart woman may know how to flaunt her body to win people’s attention but she chooses not to because it’s demoralizing and unethical. And her decision is not simply made out of ignorance but in fact, through weighing thoughts and consequences. discovered that you are God and you can do anything you want and yet, you choose not to simply abuse your powers for selfish gains.

What I’m trying to deliver here is.. There is some pureness in a smart woman and it is her knowledge and wisdom that makes her so.

Those prepubescent girls are seemingly pure only because they have yet to know anything. Once they are aware of things, then we have to see if they use their experience for good or evil. Suppose they can retain themselves for a long time, then I tip my hat to them.

It’s all about staying true to yourself..and that’s what makes a person pure.

Now, I’m not exactly bashing young frivolous girls but I just want to introduce a perspective that is, smart women should not necessarily be considered manipulative and evil.

Baa.. <u__u>

Right now..I’m thinking of how to make this subject gender-friendly in which we can discuss about both men and women. But when it comes to smart and innocent type, it’s usually among women, right?

On a side note, Nic and I talked about this ‘Holier-than-art-thou’ type of people. Again, common within the female colony.

Yea, there are those who fence innocence just to make themselves look good and others look dirty.

They will pick out something you’ve done that an innocent girl should not do and tell you, “Oh, you’ve done that? I’ve never and would never because I’m such a goodie~”

You know, implying that you are not as holy as she is.

(Well, true I am not. Because kicking their ovaries comes easily for me.)

Ergo with that said… Questions for you boys and girls~!

Boys ♂ Which do you prefer? Mature or immature girls and what do you think of them? For you, does maturity play a major role in a relationship?

Girls ♀ → Which do you category do you belong in? Naive or Experienced? Do you feel offended when people say you are otherwise?

For the fun of it, do you know of any holier-than-art-thou people? Want to bitch about them? Go right ahead! (Laughs)

Replying to an Old Message!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers

Mood: Bubbly

Exactly 1 year ago, for the fun of it I wrote a message to my ‘future’ self, which some of you may remember.

Now, it’s time to unearth and reply to it~! (Laughs)

Here’s what I wrote last time! ↓

Dear 2010 Sheep,

How are you? I’m trying to picture what kind of clothes are you wearing now. A space suit? A futuristic attire? Nay! That’s absurd! It has only been a year. However at this rate and our carelessness towards the environment…it’s possible that we will have to start wearing protective suits in time to come. How sad…and tacky! <≥A≤>/

By the way, are your boobs any bigger? (Laughs) It would be nice if they have grown fuller however, I hope they are not illegal — get what I mean? <OAO>(Laughs)

Right now, I’m thinking about your well being..whether you’re happy and contented with the way things are going for you.

“Are you any closer to your dreams?
Have you fulfilled your hair of revenge?
Is Auwlithe still fat and grumpy?
Are you living in the new house now?

How are the neighbors there? Friendly and warm?
Have you been visiting Aunty Sebasti and her family?
Do you still keep in touch with Nic and Fe?
What cellphone are you currently using?
Have you made any true friends?
Are you seeing anyone special?

…Are you still as lonesome as ever?”

Well, I know I won’t be able to get your answers immediately. It’s going to take a year to finally get those questions answered. But don’t worry, I’ll patiently wait for your reply for I know, it takes time for those answers to take place.

In this letter, I can only tell you how is it like to be ‘me’ right now, who is 21 years old and still calls herself a sheep. (Laughs)

I have no complaints being me because I’m very comfortable with the way I am. Although not many people agree with my behavior and resentment towards humans, I’m able to dismiss their disapproval and carry on living with myself let it be if I’m alone.

I always believe that no one should force themselves to hop on the band wagon just because everyone else is doing it. People lose themselves when they do so. Also, they have to live with such a pretentious life. <TAT>

Anyway, for your sake — I hope you have found peace in yourself and able to live without any guilt and insecurity by now. Most importantly, live your life well. Do good no matter what.

One more thing: Please continue to blog at PaperDiaries even when no one is supporting you. Blogging has become a hobby that you enjoy so much. It would be a waste if you stop because of other people’s influence. <u__u>

Well, on top of all that has been said, I hope you are living a good life and by now, have someone special to hold dearly to. Though I don’t encourage you to be in a relationship yet. I think one year of acquaintance is still too green. Let’s wait for another couple of years, shall we? By then, we can start interrogating 2011 sheep! <^v^>/ (Laughs)

Before I end my message, it seems there are a few more messages from your friends. ↓

* Names are concealed for protection

I’m not sure if there will be messages from your blog readers as well but by any means, please read them with an open heart~

Thank you and see you soon~!

Hugs and kisses,

2009 Sheep 

Reminder: This message is scheduled to be unearthed on the 19th December 2010, night. (Laughs)

Well to begin with…


In fact! <OAO>

I suspect it has shrunk! <TAT> (Cries)

Don’t ask for more details, please! I just feel that it has disappeared and am reluctant to wrap the measuring tape around for confirmation. <≥A≤>

As for the following… ↓

  1. Are you any closer to your dreams?
    What dreams..Oh! ‘That’ dream. Still far from it. <^-^>
  2. Have you fulfilled your hair of revenge?
    It’s not exactly the length that I’m striving to reach but it’s much longer now. Going to keep this up! (Pumps up!)
  3. Is Auwlithe still fat and grumpy?
    He still is! Now I call him a ‘Tub’ because he seems to be like one! The sad thing is, he’s getting older. <;__;> I hope he can live as long as I do because I’ll definitely die of loneliness without my dear, dear baby!
  4. Are you living in the new house now?
    Yes, living in a beautiful and cozy home. <^-^>/
  5. How are the neighbors there? Friendly and warm?
    At first, some of them were. But after the dog incident, they seem cold towards us.
  6. Have you been visiting Aunty Sebasti and her family?
    Still do. In fact, will be seeing them next week!
  7. Do you still keep in touch with Nic and Fe?
    Yes. We are chatting actively on Facebook and made calls via Skype to keep in touch. Next month, Fe will be coming back to PJ so there’s a chance of meeting up again!
  8. What cellphone are you currently using?
    No changes to my cellphone. My Samsung Star is in tip-top condition and there’s simply no excuse to replace it!
  9. Have you made any true friends?
    Well…I do have some good companions to talk and be talked to. Quite thankful that they talk to me sometimes. <^-^>
  10. Are you seeing anyone special?…Or……Are you still as lonesome as ever?
    (Laughs nervously) N-Nobody..Not a single prospect! <ºAº>lll S-should I start digging out my old contacts and check on them? (Laughs nervously)

Truthfully, there hasn’t been much changes since last year. My life has been pretty stagnant and nothing so big has yet to take place.

However, I’m very thankful for the short and little events that has happened. I got a taste of working life. In spite it was just a short period of time, it was a good experience and am looking forward to start working outside again. (More on this another time~!)

And then, I got to meet Nic-sempai, Spit and Yannie too~! (Laughs)

Well overall, year 2010 has been rather kind and lenient with me. <≥ω≤>

I hope next year, there will be more happenings to come~!

I also wish that everyone enjoyed this year much more than I did and may the coming year do you good~!

Maybe you’re saying, “I’m not into this whole New Year resolution” or Every year is the same old shit” however, isn’t it nice to know that you’re still walking this Earth after a year has gone by? Which means there is still a chance to pursue a goal or a dream?

(Laughs nervously) I’m not one to speak of such matters but even so, let’s be positive. <^-^>/

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Sheep better make a move now before blogging poorly articulated thoughts! <≥A≤>

Till next time, everyone~

In case I don’t blog sooner, I wish all of you in advance…Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year~!

Have a great year end with your friends and family~!

PS: Oh right…Another highlight for this year →  Sheep became short sighted! ↑