Archive for December, 2009
Mood - Kickass!

Mood - Kickass!

2009 is about to end.

And now, we all prepare to greet 2010 in hopes that it will be a better and a much more prosperous year for everyone~

Also, it’s time for sheep to close the voting poll and reveal the results~

Chang~~~! ↓

Ah~ <^ε^> So there are more female readers flooding this blog. (Laughs)

Well, thank you ladies for your support and corporation~

Guys, it’s ok. I still adore you all just as much~ (Laughs)

Baa~ <u_u>

I shall not keep you here too long. You probably can’t wait to jack off for the countdown, ne?

Please be careful out there and don’t drink alcoholic beverages if you are going to drive!

Stay safe, that’s an order~!

Sheep is going to spend time searching for this song, “Something Missing” by Michi. It’s a really awesome song. What’s even awesome is the video beneath! ↓

Bayonetta — directed by Hideki Kamiya who is responsible for giving birth to Devil May Cry~

Suppose you are not into guns and kickass babes, then please just listen to the song~

Sore ja — baa-bai~

Mood - Unknown

Mood - Unknown

This question has been stuck to my head for some time now. ↓

“What happens when we stop needing? Do we still desire?”

As in, when all needs are fulfilled, is there anything else we want?

In relationship wise, there will be needs and wants. I have no idea how many people think that needs are most important of all in a relationship or desire tops it all. Some may say they both come equally.

I’m sure you’ve heard of lyrics that goes along the lines of “I need you like water —” and whatever there is to synthesize with. Then there are those who sing, “I want you, I want you tonight~~~~~♥!”

Though I’ve never been delivered of such loving words but through observation, I managed to fathom out which word is more emotionally driven or shall I say, the word that turns a person on. Is it “I need you” or “I want you”?

Well I’d say — desire wins a person’s heart, not needs.

My reason is — Needs can be fulfilled in many ways. If you are lonely, you can have friends to accompany you. If you are bored, you can play video games. Or you’re upset, perhaps a good movie is enough to crack you up. Either way, you can bounce back to happiness on your own if you are independent.

What I’m trying to say is — needs can be replaced.

“No, I really need my boyfriend. He is the only one who can make me happy!” I hear you retorting. True. He is of importance. You totally pivot on him like an oxygen tank. Even if you both argued and on the verge to break up, you still go back to him because you need him. No one else can take you out of the darkness. Some people are in constant need of a companion that it doesn’t matter who the person is as long as they don’t feel alone.

Do you really want to live like this? Always in need? How about always being needed but not wanted?

I can’t possibly answer for others. Personally, I dislike it when people say they need me. I’d always feel that once I’m done doing them a favor, they’d leave me. And all I can do is hope that they will want to stay with me a little longer, not by force of a need.

Many a times I feel like a valuable asset to others. But that’s just about it; an asset, a tool. And once they figure out other means to fill that need without me, I don’t exist and they stop coming to me because I’m not wanted to begin with.

With that, I look in disgust whenever a person claims he/she needs me. It’s as if they have nobody else and they are forced to seek me instead. I’m pretty much the last person to ever resort to because I’m very selfish and cold. I don’t like to take care and be responsible for other people’s feelings.

Anyway, let’s take the rich people as an example. They have everything, don’t they? Wealth, good looks, splendid life, fame, friends — everything YET they still feel somewhat lonesome.

What do you think they need?

They can have top notch buddies to play around with but is that what they want? Another day with people to just get by with? No, this is the point whereby their desires hunger.

There’s a saying for the rich people, “I can have anything in the world, but I only want you” or something like that.

This pretty much breaks the boundaries of needs. From something so ordinary to extremely precious.

It’s like, “I already have everything I need. Now the question is — Do I still want you?” kind of thing.

Just ask yourself how many times you need something/someone although you don’t want to and —  how many times you want something/someone despite that you don’t actually need?

For instance, you need to be nice to your ex-boyfriend because he is in the same circle of friends. You don’t want to but you don’t want to impose others, therefore you just force yourself to be good.

Love is ruled emotionally, when we fall in love — we ignore logic and warnings. We don’t care, we just want him/her.

I’m not trying to teach people how love works. Like I’ve said, it’s just my thoughts and I want to express it openly.

All I know is — Let me first make a confession: I’m a cruel user. I do make use of people and when I’m done, I’d ditch them. I don’t fancy being needed nor in need of others. However, I always hope that people can win my heart so that we can continue being friends and not just tools for one another.

I don’t want to pivot on a person. I don’t want to hold hands because I need to in order to keep the love going. I want to be able to desire being with that special person. I want him to know that I can go through tough times on my own and that I can seek comfort else where or from others –but– I don’t want them. I choose you. And please feel honored and not take this as a responsibility, my love. Because I’m with you based on my own will — not by strings attached.

-xoxo-

The Distorted Sheep


Additional notes: Uh — but when it comes to marketing, ‘needs’ are more important than ‘wants’. When a person is in a buying mode, the mindset focuses on how practical and useful the item is. Unless you can somehow persuade the buyer to purchase your items. Otherwise, just attack their needs in that department! (Laughs)

Mood - Cheerful!

Mood - Cheerful!

So!!!

How was your Christmas!!!? <^∇^>/~

Did you have a good time with your family and friends?

No? Perhaps you aren’t one who enjoys this kind of merriment that requires you to visit your relatives and talk about the goodness of sharing and caring. In lieu, you prefer to hang out with your good buddies in your nearest pub, get drunk and countdown until a whole new year arrives! (Laughs)

Now that Christmas is over, we have one more celebration around the corner which is — welcoming a new year, 2010~ \<—ω—>o

Well by then, sheep hope that she doesn’t fall sick. It’s weird. I think it started about 2 days ago. I picked up a very foul smell in my house. At first, I suspected a rat could have died somewhere but when I asked my mother, she said she didn’t find any dead creatures. Otherwise, Auwlithe would be the first to spot it.

How do I describe this smell? <.__.>

Well… It’s a combination of… ↓

It really stinks!

Mother thinks it has to do with my own imaginations in which I think it’s a very stupid idea. Why the hell do I want to imagine a smell like this? I rather imagine a much more fragrant scent of course! I’d also imagine being with Sephiroth, Byakuya, Homura and all my favorite bishies while I’m at it! <`A´>/

Anyway, the smell is still lingering and following me. I guess I’m having a flu or something. Goodness, sheep feels like vomiting!

I felt the urge to vomit in church just now but held back because— I received the body of Christ (in a form of bread) a few hours ago. (Sheep is Catholic by the way)

Of course I can’t just vomit the Bread of Life out, can I? Sheesh! <≥A≤>/

Gu~~waa!

Sheep seems to also have other health concerns but don’t be alarm — “It could just be my own imaginations.”

Pff.

That aside, I want to write a little bit on a couple of products~

I’ve been using this body butter for months already. I think this is my third jar so far. It’s really nice to use. Normally when I use a product, after I’ve finished it I would try out other brands however, I’ve been consequently using this particular brand. For one thing, it doesn’t have that sticky feeling.

Another, it has a very sweet smell~ (so sweet that it overwrites the dead rat+mushroom fungus in porridge smell)

Sheep applies this religiously after every bath!

You know, when you apply some creams or lotions, it sticks onto your skin making you feel greasy. However, this body butter is quite ok if you apply a reasonable amount; so that it can absorb quickly.

It’s made with Bee’s Milk and apparently, bee’s milk is good for maintaining a youthful skin[?]. You can go ahead and Google for more information on Bee’s milk because for all I know, cosmetics will make all sorts of promises and nonsense.

Despite that, here I am — using these products. Why? Simply because I’m a girl. <_  _>lll (Laughs)

Back on track… <T_T>

You can find this body butter in Watsons (Malaysia outlets only). There are 3 types: Lotion, hand cream and body butter.

The body butter cost about RM15.60.

Eto…If I were to rate Be Gorgeous’s Body Butter, I’d give it a 7/10.

Up next…

SuperHeadz.Tokyo camera~

This is a film-based camera by Lomo-people. It’s like a normal camera whereby you look into the viewfinder and then snap a picture with a single click.

The cover material is made of rubber. There are several other colors available however, only white is made out of plastic because if it were to be of rubber material, it can get dirty very fast and hard to clean it.

But what’s special about this camera is that it is not battery-operated.

The usage is very manual as in you have to rewind the film yourself in order to snap the next picture. With that, you can fathom that there is no flash light or any digital functions such as playbacks and video recordings.

It is a very simple camera. I bought it because I miss having an old type of camera. In my childhood, my family were unable to take many family photos because we couldn’t afford a camera. And when we somehow do take pictures, I remember getting all excited to wash the films and see the pictures.

Although now I have a digital camera and a good cellphone camera, I just thought it’ll be nice to have a camera like this…So nostalgic~~! <^ε^>/

[ . . . ]

Alright, alright! <TAT>

My hands were itchy that day and felt like buying something! <≥.≤>/

Sheep was hanging around Action City and came across this cool stuff which was selling for RM119. I saw many other cool cameras in different forms: Key chains, little books — awesome gadgets!

Baa~ <u_u>

I have not tried taking pictures with it yet but once I do, sheep will post the photos up — definitely~

Oh, do take note: You cannot transfer photos from this camera to the computer!

What a waste, you think?

Baa~ We all waste our money in many ways.

<_  _>

Baa…

[ . . . ]

Good night! <^-^>/

Reminder: A few more days and sheep will be closing the votes. Who has not voted, please do so at this entry. Thank you~<^∇^>/~

Sheep — The Loser!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
21
Dec
Mood - Languid

Mood - Languid

I was trying out a couple of clothes and for the fun of it, sheep did some ‘cam whoring’. ↓

But most of the photos were very bad. My said-to-be freckles are becoming more apparent than before. ↓

Though I don’t really mind the freckles, I’m quite disturbed with the fact that I seem to look much older than I last remember. People have been commenting that I look matured since I was 14 years old and now, even more!

‘Matured’ is just a modest substitution for ‘old hag’! <≥A≤>/ (Screams)

At the moment, I’m even more disheartened because I don’t know if I’m a late bloomer OR I’ve already bloomed — without my realization. Am I withering now? Or am I forever a bud? <;__;>

Mother said I’m probably a late bloomer and that it is better to bloom later rather than at such an early age because as quickly as a flower blooms, just as quickly it will wither — so to speak. <T_T>

Well, I don’t mind waiting for the time to come however, I’m just afraid that I’ve already missed it and I’m going to be like this forever — a loser. <_  _>lll

And if that’s not enough, more salt has been sprinkled to my wounds. ↓

I got stuck in my dress!

Could it be? This goes to say sheep is growing side ways too?

Nuuuuu! <TAT> (Cries)

Then yesterday, I felt angry at the same time upset because —-

[ . . . ]

… Sheep doesn’t want to talk anymore!! <≥A≤>/

!! Hides !!