Archive for February, 2009

By Thy Side

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
28
Feb
Mood - Genki level is over 9,000!

Mood - Genki level is over 9,000!

Yokoso~♫

This is Ms.Aya who is bursting with lots of energy to blog, entertain and irritate you as much as possible in just one day~! (Laughs) \<´v`>/~¤

She is also the same girl who saw a naked kid today but still couldn’t tell apart the child’s gender despite the obvious exposure. (Laughs nervously) <´•__•`>

Honest! Sheep still cannot fathom out that child’s gender! (Cries)

Anyway, that’s not important so let’s dismiss it. (Everyone: But you brought this up first… Sheep: *Shrugs*)

It rained heavily awhile ago and as usual… Auwlithe got terrified of the lightning and thunder. Every time when the sky starts to down pour, Auwlithe would come close to the grill and shiver out of fear. Sometimes he would even vibrate violently! ↓

So when it rains heavily, I would normally sit beside him at the door, talk to him and pat him until he feels safe. Now that I think about it… Even a dog wants a companion by its side to allay it at times of fear. <o_o>{!]

All this while… I try not to yearn for anyone to be by my side. I always feel that I’d look stupid and too dependent on others so — I resort to imprisoning myself mentally. As time goes by, I adapt to this mindset and eventually lost the faith in having others by my side. <_  _>lll

I admit… Last time when I hear people pleading to have someone by their side.. I would have ill perceptions about them. Such as “Heh.. Such a weak fella who easily feels lonely” or I’ll plainly call that person a loser.

But after observing my dog carefully… I start to realize one thing. The first time I had to comfort him throughout the rainy seasons, it was really tough to console and calm him down. He would persist in coming in the house and sometimes he would keep calling for me as he cries in fear.

We don’t allow him to enter the house because we’re afraid it might become a habit later on. Also, we wanted him to be strong and learn to adjust himself outside whether it’s rain or shine. <¬_¬>

Anyway… I began to accompany him whenever it rains and sometimes when I leave him for just awhile — Auwlithe will start to cry. <TAT>

Yes, he’s very needy under this particular circumstances. However… I came to notice that he no longer cries or whines a lot during the rainy seasons. In fact, I don’t have to keep patting him until the rain stops. <^-^>lll

Just now, I saw him shivering and just when I was about to come over — He stopped his shivers and calmed down. It was as if having me in his sight was more than enough to allay him. <´-` >

So my point is… Even a dog has this instinct and sense of wanting a being to be by its side at fearful and needy times.

Prior to this I seem to be worse than an animal.. What a shame. (Laughs)

And I thought dwelling on my own is an act of bravery. <T_T>

[ . . . ]

Baa~ <u_u>

Having that said, yearning for a companion to be in one’s side isn’t a foolish crave and certainly not something to be ashamed of. It’s part of our nature as what the saying goes: No man is an island~☆!

In addition, this is the same for animals too!

(Folds arms) What a valuable lesson…~♫ (Nods in agreement)

[ . . . ]

Everyone: What the– Now only sheep knows?

Sheep: Shut up. lll<¬_¬> *Blushes*

Tags x 2

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
28
Feb
Mood - FUKATSU!

Mood - FUKATSU!

I’ve been tagged by Mau-chan and Szanne through Facebook so now that I’m very free… I might as well do them~

First sheep will start with.. Mau-chan’s tag! \<´v`>/~¤

3…

2…

1…

Star~TO!

TAG #1

YOUR HOMEWORK IS:

You are required to answer ALL the following questions.
Tag 16 people and repost it with the title:
I’ve done (insert number of x) out of the 132 stupid things.

99/132 means you scored a distinction for doing stupid things! (although that’s not really an achievement hahaha)
[ . . . ]

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

Number of x: 1

Level 2
(x) Fall In Love with non living thing
( ) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
(x) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

Number of x: 4

Level 4

(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School

( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

Number of x: 3

Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

Number of x: 2

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding/Skiing
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook (Friendster counts)
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

Number of x: 1

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
( ) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
( ) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel

Number of x: 1

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party I want to do this again!
(x) Flown A Kite
Sheep wanna do again!
(x) Built A Sand Castle

( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up I want to dress up as a princess again!

Number of x: 4

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
( ) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

Number of x: 3

Level 10

(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

Number of x: 1

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

Number of x: 2

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

Number of x: 3

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

Number of x: 1

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime

( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

Number of x: 3

Level 15

(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

Number of x: 3

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers

( ) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
( ) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

Number of x: 3

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn’t
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call

( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

Number of x: 2

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

Number of x: 1

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True

( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

Number of x: 2

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Swore at the teacher, in front of them When I was 12 and was on a school trip, I cursed aloud at one boy who kept disturbing my nap in the bus. My friends told me that the teachers at the back were surprised and their eyes were wide open.
( ) Swam With Dolphins

Number of x: 1

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex’s Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top

Number of x: 1

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
( ) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

Number of x: 1

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House.

( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

Number of x: 2

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail Don’t you dare get the idea that I was sent to jail. NO NO!

Number of x: 2

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You’re Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

Number of x: 2

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried

(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

Number of x: 3

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You Happened twice. One mo.fu even masturbated in front of me! (Cries)
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone’s Name
(x) French Braided Someones Hair

( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x) Tried to hurt yourself

Number of x: 5

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed

Number of x: 1

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs

( ) Licked A Cat
( ) Bitten Someone
( ) Licked Someone

Number of x: 2

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Number of x: 0

TOTAL: 60
I’ve done 60 out of the 132 stupid things.. Although I don’t deem some to be dumb. (Eg: Tea party, Dress up, fly kite, blowing bubbles, sushi..more)

I pass this tag to: (I don’t even have 16 friends!)

Rocketd, Saru-chan, Daisuke, Sachi-chan, Szanne, NPS, Pixy, Ms. Pufa, Kim-chan…

That should do it.. (Laughs nervously)

Now to do Szanne’s tag~!

↓ ↓ ↓

TAG #2

Copy and paste and put your own answers in. The purpose of this is to get to know your friends better and it’s so much fun!

Here are the rules – post this list on your profile (in Notes) replacing my answers with yours. (You can add the notes tab to your profile page!)

Tag 25 people to do the same thing.

If I tagged YOU, it’s because I want to know more about YOU!
——————————————————————————————————————

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
June is taken after the month of my birth. Whereas Ashley is suppose to be my cousin’s name but she turn out to be a HE so… My mum stole this name for me from her sister. (Laughs)

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Not long ago… Have you watched the ending for Dragon Ball GT? The ending is so tragic! Especially the part where Goku had a last friendly duel with his best friend, Kuririn. Goku let Kuririn win on purpose and he then disappeared. Some more they show his footprints got washed by the waves just to imply that he no longer exist! Also, he shook hands with Piccolo before he disappeared along with the Shen Ron for real. How sad! (Starts crying again)

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I like how it strains other people’s eyes. (Laughs)

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Beef and pork.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
No… Am I suppose to? <.__.>{?]

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes, I love to have a twin. Double mischievous!

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Depends.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
What’s that?

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Nupo!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
KOKO Crunch and Fruit Loops.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Yes.

12. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TOWEL?
My towels are normally black, pink, blue or yellow in color.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Green tea, cookies and cream, chocolate chip mint, strawberry and many more that I’ve yet to taste~♥! <^v^>/

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Never really took any notice of what to notice in the first place.. (Laughs nervously)

15. RED OR PINK?
Pink.

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My flat chest. I want to be more busty! JIGGLE-DEEee~♥ <OAO>/

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Nobody.

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Judging from how boring this list is, no… I don’t expect anyone to complete it.

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Grey shorts, barefooted.

20. WHAT IS/WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY?
All my Polly Pocket houses. The old Pockets are so nice and cute~ Last time they came in small sizes like: ↓

The character is as small as my thumb nail. So cute and innocent looking. However… the current Pollies are no longer in pockets anymore because: ↓

They grew up to be teenage bitches. <;__;> (Weeps)

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Some oldies. (Reluctantly of course)

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Pink.

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Roses and men’s perfume.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Pizza man.

25. FAVORITE DRINK?
Ice blended Caramel coffee with whipped cream and chocolate chips.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
WWE RAW and Smackdown!!!

27. HAIR COLOR?
Brown.

28. EYE COLOR?
Dark brown.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No.

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Porridge, pizza, Sukiyaki udon and Agedashi tofu.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Scary movies.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Pink Panther 2.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Yellow singlet.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter. I hate the sun because it dries me up like a prune!

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hug and kiss at the same time~♥

36. FAVORITE PASTIME?
Disturb Auwlithe~♥

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
<.__.>{?]

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
<.__.>{Wakarimahen…]

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
The English dictionary.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I don’t have a mouse pad.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing.

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)?
Ka-ching! $$$

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Neither.

44. WHERE IS THE FARTHEST PLACE YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
United Kingdom.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Doesn’t seem like I have any.

46. WHERE WERE U BORN?
I really want to tell you but I don’t know how to read co-ordinates. *sheepish eyes*

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
God. He still haven’t told me when I’ll get what I want. (Laughs)

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
N/A

49. IF YOU COULD VOTE, WOULD YOU VOTE FOR OR AGAINST GOV?
Against the government. I can’t state my reasons or else I might get held under ISA (Internal Security Action).

50. WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF 5 YEARS FROM NOW?
If I spout my views publicly about the government, then probably I’ll be in ISA for who knows how long.

I tag:

Rocketd, Saru-chan, Daisuke, Sachi-chan, Mau-chan, NPS, Pixy, Ms. Pufa, Kim-chan…

- Owari -

Please do the tags, everyone~!

!! runs off to … <.__.>lll the kitchen !!

\<≥A≤>/

Fukatsu!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
28
Feb
Mood - Fukatsu!

Mood - Fukatsu!

With the strength that I’ve borrowed from others, sheep somehow is able to smile widely again and regain her genki composure. Having that said — Ookini minna-hun and *FUKATSU~☆! <`ε´>/

Kim-chan and I are concurrently starting to get ourselves in-tune with drawing again and it seems that she has started already. So now I have to crack my fingers and get started as well. o<`ω´>o

Last night, I managed to draw only one picture which is a fan art of Ky Kiske from Guilty Gear. ↓

Click to enlarge image

Click to enlarge image

I won’t claim this to be my best art in fact — it’s rather poor because the pose is so boring and there’s nothing spectacular about it. Therefore, motto ganbarimasu~☆! <^ω^>/

Later in the day, I’ll try to draw more pictures with the help of SSH’s (Saitama Saisyu Heiki) tracks~☆! \<^v^>/

I don’t know much about this Japanese guy since I was recommended by a certain meanie. But he was right. SSH produces kickass music that is so badass — the blues will get the fook out of your mood. <`ω´>o

If you’re into fast and heavy metal music, by all means give SSH a try~♫ \<´v`>/

You can download the mp3s at: http://ssh.ne.jp/ under the MP3 section. <´•ω•`>

My favorites are: The Watchdog of Hell, MKO, メタラッターβ and Slip-K. <n_n>

(Laughs) Well… I don’t know about you but I’m the type of person who draws according to the beat of a song. If I were to draw in silence, somehow my drawings will look very lifeless and mundane like the fan art above.

Actually, I was listening to SSH’s soundtracks while drawing however — my MP4 died out of me so soon before I could construct a proper image and emotion for Ky Kiske. (Tears) Sorry Ky… <;__;>

About what I’ve been doing lately… I’m still living a very routine life. <_  _>

I either go to the gym on Mondays, Wednesdays or Fridays. And during the weekends like today, I would go out and eat my favorite beef noodle~♥. ↓

The soup is very delicious and mixing it with chili will be a double dosage of YUM~ (Laughs)

The beef noodle guy sees me and mother so often that we don’t have to open our mouth to make the order. He would just nod and give me my usual. <—ω—>/

After I whacked finish my beef noodle, I followed mummy to the pet store to buy Auwlithe’s can food. Then, we went to one of the many old Chinese shops where they sell herbs and Chinese medicines. <=’.'=>

I waited outside because the shop lot was so small and crowded. Those kind of shops are usually crowded with boxes and other stuffs which makes them very inaccessible. <_  _>lll

Anyway… While waiting outside, I came across this poster. ↓

Apparently, the secret to a happy and loving marriage is no other than SEX. <=__=>lll

Therefore, sex is very essential. To some man’s despair, they can’t last long while copulating so they need the help of pills and some sort of medicine to increase their heat and sex drive. I didn’t know of such things until I saw these kind of advertisements all over the place. For example, the one above. Yes, that’s how I came to know about this… and mum elaborated more to me.. (Laughs nervously)

Scary… <u_u> Just look at the poster. ↑ 2 legs of the bed broke. Imagine how aggressive a man can be.

[ . . . ] I’ll leave that for you to imagine. (Laughs)

In all seriousness… Do we have to depend on sex to keep the relationship and love burning?

I find this hard to absorb. <_  _>lll

Baa~♥

I better get going now. I still have 2 tags to complete.

So, be with you in a moment! \<^x^>/

* Fukatsu = Revive!

Restoring the Flair

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
23
Feb
Mood - Psycho

Mood - Normal

(Waves)

This is sheep who is rather happy that it rained today. For the last few weeks, the sun was so hot to the point sheep was drying up like a prune!

I really hope the rainy season can stretch to as long as 2 months. <^v^>/

[ . . . ]

On second thoughts, I can’t be too selfish because there are people out there who walks to school and work everyday. They aren’t like me who is fortunate to be able to work from home. <.__.>

Therefore, I eat back my words… <´•__•`>

Anyway, for today’s topic — I’m wondering — How can an interest and passion be restored again?

As in restoring the flair in an old interest and goal. <^-^>

For instance, once upon a time you love to draw pictures then suddenly — you stopped doing what you loved most. Either you got bored of it or you no longer have the talent in it — The reason varies depends on the individual. <T_T>

This is my current situation. I have the tendency to lose my flair in not just drawing but also everything which includes ‘living’. <;__;> (Cries)

The root of my dying passion is rather obvious for I very well know that I don’t have the love for the things I do. Whenever I do something, it’s always due to authority or merely because I feel it’s the right to do. <u_u>

Now when I think deeply about it, my discoveries unveils how loveless I actually am. <;__;>

It’s no wonder I’m never a victor. Even if I was, deep down somewhere within my consciences — I never felt that I won anything. <u_u>

I don’t intend to be like this anymore because it’s very lonesome and it’s getting me nowhere in life.

So I’m wondering… Is there a way to overcome this? <.___.>{?]

And how would you bring yourself up from such a downfall?

Come on, tell me something!

Otherwise you’re proving to me how right I am about humans being self-centered and cruel! (Laughs)

(I know, I’m such an asshole to say this)

Ok, let’s put it this way: ↓

I want to see faeries and in order to do so, I have to purify myself! \<^ε^>/~☆

!! Laughs !!

I bought this book long time ago at a discounted price. I don’t really have interest in faeries and neither have I ever debated about their existence. In fact at that time I purchased this book, my mind was functioning at the rate of the first Pentium chip. <x_x>

Yes… Very slow… (Laughs nervously)

In this book, it is said that there are many types of faeries that we’re unaware of. The faeries that we normally hear from tales are called the Flower Faeries. They normally dress in the same color as the flowers that they attend to.

Apparently, we can commute with faeries through certain means. One of them is to go to a forest and allow the breeze to lead you. By appreciating the wind, you’ll attract the Sylphs which are air elemental faeries.

Well.. I’m just thinking — That would be awesome! Imagine how much we can learn from creatures which has lived longer than us on this planet. Imagine the load of fascinating knowledge and information! \<^v^>/

If given a chance, I don’t mind giving this a try (whether it’s true or false, I do love wind very much) however.. When I think about REALLY doing this here.. In Malaysia… My excitement sinks gradually because our jungles here are —- You know… Very tropical and infested with mosquitoes.

Furthermore, our jungles are famed for Pontianaks, Poyongs[?], Hantu Pisang (Banana Ghost) etc… <_  _>lll

Nobody would want to run into those kind of spirits. <x_x> (Except Russell Lee)

Oh ya, I’m aware that this has absolutely nothing got to do with the whole ‘restoring the flair’ question above but I’m just forcefully relating them because I don’t want to sound like a whiny-sour-sheep moreover, a moody-gloomy-boomy.

Baa~

I’m so lame~ (Tears)

[ . . . ]

Sheep wants a hug so badly… <;__;> (Tears)