[TFTW] Thin for the Win!

Posted by: Ms Ayain Ms Aya's Papers
4
Jan
Mood - Somewhat happy

Mood - Somewhat happy

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Blogging to you right now is the sheepish Ms.Aya who is high in spirits after recovering from her fever~! <^ω^>v

Though sheep is still coughing— What the heck. I’m typing, not speaking — right? (Laughs)

I see that everybody has already made an entry to welcome Year 2009!

Sheep is so left behind! <;__;>

Well.. On the faithful night before New Year’s eve, sheep was happily browsing through some nice pictures. Everything was pleasing to the eyes until — ↓

I caught Broly kissing Son Goku. <OAO>!!!

Shortly after that, my cheeks burned and immediately retire for the day. When morning came, I started coughing and made my way to Auwlithe. I told him about this picture and suddenly, he fell sick too. <_  _>lll * Yaoi is a decease indeed!

[ . . . ]

Ok ok ok… I’m just fooling you. (Laughs) There’s no way I’d go down over such a trivial issue. As much as I like Broly’s character, I’m a realistic person. Furthermore, Broly loves to die in all 3 of his movies. (I feel sad for him though. Everybody is controlling him and not giving him a chance to expand his power and worth) <∏A∏>

However, about Auwlithe falling sick on the same time as sheep.. That’s TRUE. (Laughs) So you can imagine the both of us sitting down side by side with a thermometer hanging from our mouths.. <´•ω•`>

Right… Enough about that. Now.. ↓

How shall I start my first entry for this year? <^-^>lll

There wasn’t anything spectacular about my celebration because I was sick and basically, I worsen my cough by drinking more cold drinks. (Laughs nervously)

Despite the irritating cough and block nose, let’s just say — I take this short period of falling sick a blessing in disguise because it has helped me lose 3kg in the process.

Prior to this I was about to exceed 45kg. Those of you who know me in person might consider this as a good thing for me since I’m sort of under weight.

But truth to speak, I want to be under weight for the rest of my life regardless of whether it’s not healthy for me or people will make fun of me.

Some of you may be surprise with what I’m saying right now because I know — I used to crave putting on some weight around my waist. I’d gauge myself with all the food I have at home and totally wipe out other people’s food as well.

Indeed, I USED to feel ashamed of my weight and body. I was so scrawny and whenever my name was mentioned, everyone would identify me as the ‘Scrawny girl’ or that ‘skinny little girl.’

I find it very annoying whenever they talked about my body because they didn’t compliment me, in lieu they started teasing me as if it’s a sin to be thin. When the other kids my age teased me, I couldn’t give much a shit because they were young, aggressive and the bottom line is — they were down right stupid. But when I get criticism from adults, man — some of them can be very nasty while some are very kind and concern. <`A´>/

I flipped back one of my old journals and manage to dredge up this little memory. ↓

(Laughs) I remember… I went to the sundry shop to buy milk and then the uncle saw me and said, “Oh my goodness! You’re so thin! Here, you should eat more bread!” He handed me a loaf of bread while I was still a bit dumb founded. <^▽^>lll

Anyway… More reasons on why I hated being thin.. <T_T>

I used to be darn scared of holding umbrellas that were bigger than me because once, I was blown away from a gust of wind and I mean it literally. My feet were off the ground, no joke! <O[]O>!!!

And then there was one time I went to the theme park with Mira and her friends. We both sat a ride called Magic Carpet. You sit on a flat surface and then it goes round and round. The scariest part about this ride is that once it reaches the top, it stays there for awhile and then just when you let your guard down, it suddenly drops! \<OAO>/

If that wasn’t terrifying enough for me, I felt my boney ass leaving the seat as well as both my feet! I was so thin that I could practically slip myself out of the seat belt and bar holder. Thanks to Mira, she suddenly got so excited and then stepped on my feet REAL hard until the end of the ride. <x_x>lll

At that time, I didn’t know whether to scream at her for hurting my feet or thank her for preventing sheep from jetting off to the sky. <_  _>lll

Apart from constantly getting blown away by the wind, listening to hurtful comments — I also had problems fitting into clothes. I could only wear size 0 and knowing our Malaysian sizes, we rarely have that size. A lot of people made fun of me telling me, a 15 year old girl, to wear clothes from KIKO. (Children’s clothes)

O~oh well… The past is the past. Right now — I accept myself the way I am. Even though I am not as thin as before and not as chunky as what guys say they love their girls to be, I’m pretty damn sure that I want to stay under weight.

I have many reasons for wanting to remain underweight but I’m just going to sum it up to 1 reason: I do not want to submit myself to anyone.

The major heartache I get from all these are from the guys. I never really cared what other girls said about me because I knew they’ll grow fat and totally out of shape. Moreover, nothing hurts more than what the opposite gender says about you. (If you’re a lesbian or gay, then ignore this fact)

I received many unpleasant words from guys. Perhaps at that time, hip hop and pop culture was the IN trend therefore — boobies and buns of steel were on everyone’s list of ‘must have.’

Some times I wonder whether they mean what they say. Words like, “I prefer girls without make-up”, “girls who have some meat on them” and all that.

I won’t be surprise if I see a guy who insist he likes girls without make-up but ends out dating a plastic doll who has her face caked with powder. Or maybe a guy who says he likes girls who are slightly fat but takes a skinny model by her waist.

This puzzles me a lot. <.__.>{?]

Anyway, as I was saying — I don’t want to give myself in for other people because frankly, I don’t have to.

The extra kg that I put on was a blessing for me at first but I felt uncomfortable because I couldn’t fit in my old favorite clothes. The true horror was that I felt I look like every other stereo type of girls on the street — Those kind of girls who made fun of me (as well as teasing girls who are fatter than them).

I don’t want to be in their shoes and body! <`A´>/ No shit in hell will I ever want to be anywhere near their kind of species! Just when they think skinny girls are ugly, I think of them as despicable beasts.

That said, keeping myself underweight is my personal goal until a man who truly loves me can tell me to stop abusing myself. <^▽^>

Otherwise, I’ll just keep this up! (Laughs happily)

[ . . . ]

Phew~ Sorry for the wind bag of diarrhea. I got too carried away. (Laughs nervously)

So here’s a food for thought, everyone:

  • Does a girl/guy’s weight affects your cricteria in choosing friends and a life partner?
  • Have you been intimidated because fo your size? If so, how did you overcome it?
  • What do you think of people who demeans people according to their looks and body structure?
  • Honestly, what would you do if you see someone being a victim due to his/her appearance?

Last but not least…

Is sheep fat? <^-^>v

!! Laughs !!

Time for sheep to leave now~

Before I go… ↓

Apple Cider Vinegar

Natural Glenx Tea

Those of you who are on the quest to loosing weight… I’m currently consuming these 2 drinks.

Apple Cider Vinegar is quite effective because once you drink at least 3 -4 sips, you can feel your stomach churning in heat and perhaps you’ll be visiting the toilet very often.

Clenx Tea is my favorite. The taste is very mild (Apple Cider is very sour!) and it really purges out the toxic waste that has been accumulating in your bowels. I drank it once and in 2 days, I lost 4kg!

I’d say — drink these only when you’re planning to be home all day long. Don’t drink this and then set of for work. You’ll suffer, I tell you.

Another thing about Clenx Tea… You might experience some pain in your stomach. <x_x>

Baa… These can be found in WATSONS, Guardian.. any pharmacies I suppose.

With that said — Cheers to detoxing your bowels and …

THIN FOR THE WIN! <^v^>/

* I’m not into yaoi, just so you know!

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8 comments so far

1.  the rocketd, my booze is already wearing out...
January 5th, 2009 at 12:50 am

Glad to hear you’re not into yaoi, though I have no grudge against homosexuals, in fact I have some gay friends who are cool and nice, that’s if they don’t get too close to me ha ha ha.

Here the answers to your questions:

-Does a girl/guy’s weight affects your cricteria in choosing friends and a life partner?

I think the natural question would be yes, since we all have our own personal interests and tastes… but!, in the end, when you really fall in love with someone you stop caring about things such as weight, height or bra size. It’s happened to me so I can safely say, no, it doesn’t affect.

-Have you been intimidated because fo your size? If so, how did you overcome it?

Never, I’m a lucky guy, nobody has ever made fun of me because of my looks, though my friends are always making light of me because of my utter lack of luck with girls…

-What do you think of people who demeans people according to their looks and body structure?

They’re brainless dicks.

-Honestly, what would you do if you see someone being a victim due to his/her appearance?

That depends on the situation, if a girl is picking on some other girl I’d have to let it pass since it’s not good for a guy to get involved in ladies’ affairs. If it’s a guy picking on another guy I’ll let it pass too, but if it’s a guy picking on a girl then I’d have some not-so-kind words to say to him.

Honestly, you don’t look fat at all, in fact you look thin. Everyone’s free to do with their bodies shit and no one should mind about it, but I’ve come to like you very much and I just wanna say, please don’t over do it ok?, you might get sick. People are mean by nature, and if they don’t pick on you because of your looks, they will pick on you for other reasons.

2.  Ms.Aya
January 5th, 2009 at 7:23 pm

..but!, in the end, when you really fall in love with someone you stop caring about things such as weight, height or bra size. It’s happened to me so I can safely say, no, it doesn’t affect.

I assent to that. At the same time I’m scared that I might start falling in love with the opposite type of guy that I’ve been longing for!

(Cries) Don’t you feel scared that all this while you like girls who are slim and nice then suddenly, you start liking the opposite? This is just an example by the way.

Oh well… As you said, once you fall in love — all this flaws does not matter…

if it’s a guy picking on a girl then I’d have some not-so-kind words to say to him.

Very wise! (Salutes)

Guys picking on girls is truly a despicable act! Just like Santino who picks on the divas!

But don’t you think this is why guys and girls always argue about their sexes? The fact that it seems not fair because women always win and men has to give in? What’s you tick on that?

I’m happy that you’re concern about my health. I appreciate it very much and in return… I wish you go well with … P.J! \(^v^*)/(Laughs)

3.  the rocketd, my booze is already wearing out...
January 6th, 2009 at 11:46 pm

“I assent to that. At the same time I’m scared that I might start falling in love with the opposite type of guy that I’ve been longing for!”

Ha!, not really. Look, we wish for our soulmates to be perfect, to meet all our expectations and we expect our soulmate to have the looks we’ve always wanted… but, that’s impossible, if such a guy/girl really exists (and that’s not very likely), the chance to find him/her would be 1 among billions.

You’ll always end up dating someone different from what you dreamed of, thing is, you don’t really care, coz you can finally give those old dreams a real human shape, and you fill in the blanks of the puzzle with your sweetie’s personality while utterly forgetting about your old idea of a fairy tale prince.

“But don’t you think this is why guys and girls always argue about their sexes? The fact that it seems not fair because women always win and men has to give in? What’s you tick on that?”

Well, I’ve always agreed that women are more intelligent than men, and maybe that’s why it’s been silently decided that women have clearance to have it their ways. However, this doesn’t always happen and there are many women out there who never get a say when deciding things, even though some look really fierce and have big mouths when single, they completly change their personalities when they start dating someone…

Personally, I like girls with brains inside their skulls ha ha ha, they say 2 heads think better than 1 and I agree with that. I won’t let my partner to have it her way all the time, as well as I won’t claim to be the alfa male whose word is unquestionable. That’s the rational side of the coin of course, the sentimental (irrational) side is another story… it’s been scientifically proven that men do love more than women and that means men will always be indulgent with their girls, and that’s why some girl take advantage of this situation. This is something even cave men must’ve discussed ha ha ha, we’ll never get to an end.

4.  the rocketd, my booze is already wearing out...
January 6th, 2009 at 11:51 pm

Thanks for your kind words, things with P.J. are going just wonderful… I think I do indulge her a lot… well, if she’s happy I’m happy. I guess this way of thinking is what makes men to give in… ha!.

5.  soon
January 7th, 2009 at 12:43 am

i weight 500 pounds but i still can run!!

6.  Ms.Aya
January 7th, 2009 at 7:46 pm

Dear Rocketd

Yes, I know. Our perfect ideal will never be 100% fulfilled because we ourselves are unsure what ‘perfect’ means. Even if we do, chances in looking for our perfect and ideal partner are as slim as a tracing paper. (Tears)

even though some look really fierce and have big mouths when single, they completly change their personalities when they start dating someone…

True. I’ve read about grumpy women who were furious and easily lose control but after meeting their ultimate soul mate, they simmers themselves. I think it’s the same for men too. (Laughs)

I don’t really understand the battle of the sexes. Why they fight and catergorize themselves from one another?

Although sheep is a female, sheep can’t fathom a lady’s mind frame. (Tears)

I think you know better than me! (Laughs)

Dear Soon

Wow.. That’s good for you!

It proves that overweight people can be healthy and active as well as a thin person. (Laughs nervously)

7.  miamy
January 8th, 2009 at 2:13 am

glad to hear that you got back you phone. :) whoaa you got a replacement one! :D let’s hope our phone will be alright. hehe.

8.  the rocketd, my booze is already wearing out...
January 8th, 2009 at 10:45 am

I wish I knew ha ha ha, I can’t understand women at all, I don’t even try to do it, it’s frustrating.

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